Take Over My Life

Lord this is all of me
On my back, on my hands, and on my feet
They're pushing me down to the ground
So before You I kneel down on my knees

Lord this is all of me
On my head, in my heart, crushing my soul
They're slashing my mind into pieces
So before You I kneel down on my knees

And pray..

I surrender to You Almighty God
I surrender to Your Power
You take over my life
You take over my life

There are so many things
I don't know, why and how, all just happened
All the cry and the complaints, I'm deeply saddened
So before You I kneel down on my knees

There are so many things
I am faced, big giants, i'm shaking Lord
All the fuss and pressure, my faith is strained
So before You I kneel down on my knees

And pray...

Good Morning November

“He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.” 2 Corinthians 3:6 NIV

Good Morning God,

Thank you for your guidance last night, thank you for letting me awake all healthy this morning,
Thank you for the wonderful time you let me had last evening with him,
Thank you for the no-more-nightmare :)

Dear God,
I'm working now and please guide me through the day
Please protect me and my family and loved ones out of danger
May today I bring blessings to people

Please forgive me for my wrong doings..

God, I believe You will perform wonders by wonders to me before the end of the year..
And I can tell the world that walking with God is the best decision I could ever made..

Thank you God,

xoxo,
Agnes

On My brighter side of the spectrum

On my brighter side of the spectrum these weeks,
He brings a smile across my face
He brings that tingling feeling inside
God, could it possibly be him?


While on the other spectrum, Guy A made me sad..
But thank God I don't have any feelings anymore for Guy A.

My Love Life is Ok

As I have opened up myself to a guy from the K Country
You jumped in again..

sigh..

Anyway enough about Guy A..

K Country Guy seems like a nice guy..he sent me files on some nice K songs..I love especially Tim's rendition of We Are The Reason..it's so lovely. A lovely Christian song, a lovely voice, oh I just adore his rendition to it.

I'm starting MuayThai Cardio this Saturday afternoon.. K Guy doesn't seem to be very pleased about it, but I want to do it...I want to loose all these excess fat and I've already done done deal with friends to do Muay Thai together.

I've started singing for my church, which honestly..My heart is not fully there. Dear God, I hope I can be full heartedly serving You as a singer..

I've started working casually as wedding singer as well.. and I've learnt a lot of mental lessons there, I gain knowledge as how to perform well.

My 'core-unit' is still the same..last Saturday, **p gave us lecture and I lectured him back...I still respect him but if things get super out of the line then I have no other way but to snap it right there.
Why does God let all the turbulence happen to to what he cares the most? That's because he never listened to us as well..Taking decision all by himself without our concern, yet he's demanding us too much. He doesn't do what he preach. It's a sad sad situation.

But other than that, i told him so many times, told myself so many times, I'm just gonna work professionally. Dayum, why can't adults think like a child?? Why are they have to be so complicated as they grow older older and older. It's about forgiveness isn't it..

I guess yesterday's cell group's sharing is the right one for me.. My weakest point is that I don't have enough faith to take all of these burden..to lift em up to God. It's heavy. My logic outrun my faith..not good.  So I'm trying my best.

Anyway, to lighten up the subject.. a friend told me her love story yesterday and she's in a big dillema..I understand.. she's getting close to 30 but she's faced with this very difficult love situation. Rather than forcing oneself to be with someone that one doesn't love, doesn't have that much of a chemistry, I'd say, don't force it. Marriage is once in a lifetime..I would hate to force my feelings on a guy just because of my growing-old age. Yes I'm getting older by numbers, but what's important is the heart, the mind, the spirit to mature. Making friends here and there, open up, and be a little more sensitive and tolerant.
Eventually God's timing is the best timing. If Abraham's Sarah could get pregnant while she's already in her granny's age, then nothing is impossible for us women who wait for God's chosen man.

So my love life is ok.. i just hope my other life's aspect is ok too..

My Best Buddy

During my trip to Thailand,
I met my best bud,
Don't know when I will have the chance again to see him
But he's going to stay in my heart for quite a long time.

He took care of me when everyone else failed
He showed much love and understanding
He gave me protection when I needed it

He sacrificed his time and energy, he gave all out his heart for us..
Although he's weird, very annoying, but he's such a warm and big hearted guy.

No, he ain't a Christian
But I don't see him differently
He's what many Christian guys are supposed to be like
Sincere and Gentle.

We scolded each other endlessly
But we know we like eachother
We have different habits
But we know we have chemistry

He, I shall say, my Thai soul-mate.
He, I shall say, a true quality of : a friend in need is a friend in deed.
A best-friend I'm very grateful to God for.

Morning Gratitude

Dear God,

Thank You for I can breathe today
Thank You for I can think today
Thank You for I can walk, talk, and do things with this mind and body You gave me

Thank You for my family
Despite all the imperfections
You never abandon us

Thank You for my friends
Thank You for the beautiful personalities
You never let me alone

Thank You for shaping me
Through my family, my friends, my work, and the news of the world
Thank You for moulding me
You are bigger than my problems

Thank You for keeping us safe from  harm
I shall walk in faith and not by sight
Through trials and turmoils
Thank You for holding me through

I believe Your plan is a great plan for me
A beautiful and happy life
Journey with You is all I ever needed

Maybe This One

You shuffle in my mind
You popped up on my recently played
As numero uno
Again I'm constantly thinking about you
Songs reminding me of you
How can I ever get out
How can I ever leave you behind

Happy to get texts from you
Happy to chat with you
But we both know we're wrong
We both know struggles coming up
If we continue on

I know it sounds stupid to some
Why would beliefs even matter
But living in a culture like ours
It ain't easy
It ain't easy

We're both single damn we're right
We connect really well damn well
But living in a culture like ours
It ain't easy
It ain't easy

Like my favourite song
You're my number one chart
God please give me true love
To let go this one
God please give me true love
Or maybe this one
Just maybe