As I have opened up myself to a guy from the K Country
You jumped in again..
sigh..
Anyway enough about Guy A..
K Country Guy seems like a nice guy..he sent me files on some nice K songs..I love especially Tim's rendition of We Are The Reason..it's so lovely. A lovely Christian song, a lovely voice, oh I just adore his rendition to it.
I'm starting MuayThai Cardio this Saturday afternoon.. K Guy doesn't seem to be very pleased about it, but I want to do it...I want to loose all these excess fat and I've already done done deal with friends to do Muay Thai together.
I've started singing for my church, which honestly..My heart is not fully there. Dear God, I hope I can be full heartedly serving You as a singer..
I've started working casually as wedding singer as well.. and I've learnt a lot of mental lessons there, I gain knowledge as how to perform well.
My 'core-unit' is still the same..last Saturday, **p gave us lecture and I lectured him back...I still respect him but if things get super out of the line then I have no other way but to snap it right there.
Why does God let all the turbulence happen to to what he cares the most? That's because he never listened to us as well..Taking decision all by himself without our concern, yet he's demanding us too much. He doesn't do what he preach. It's a sad sad situation.
But other than that, i told him so many times, told myself so many times, I'm just gonna work professionally. Dayum, why can't adults think like a child?? Why are they have to be so complicated as they grow older older and older. It's about forgiveness isn't it..
I guess yesterday's cell group's sharing is the right one for me.. My weakest point is that I don't have enough faith to take all of these burden..to lift em up to God. It's heavy. My logic outrun my faith..not good. So I'm trying my best.
Anyway, to lighten up the subject.. a friend told me her love story yesterday and she's in a big dillema..I understand.. she's getting close to 30 but she's faced with this very difficult love situation. Rather than forcing oneself to be with someone that one doesn't love, doesn't have that much of a chemistry, I'd say, don't force it. Marriage is once in a lifetime..I would hate to force my feelings on a guy just because of my growing-old age. Yes I'm getting older by numbers, but what's important is the heart, the mind, the spirit to mature. Making friends here and there, open up, and be a little more sensitive and tolerant.
Eventually God's timing is the best timing. If Abraham's Sarah could get pregnant while she's already in her granny's age, then nothing is impossible for us women who wait for God's chosen man.
So my love life is ok.. i just hope my other life's aspect is ok too..
