The Power of Christ Rest Upon me

God..

Thank you for your love
Thank you for your grace
Thank you for forgiving us
Thank you for your shelter
Thank you for your guidance
Thank you for what You've done in my life

Thank you for bringing me in this place
Thank you for raising me up this way
Thank you for never letting me astray
Thank you for your patience

Thank you for your teachings
Thank you for the wisdom
Thank you for the songs
Thank you for the inspirations

To You I claim your promise Lord..

Isaiah 55:8-9

New International Version (NIV)

⁸ “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
⁹ “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.

2 Corinthians 12:9

King James Version (KJV)

⁹ And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Isaiah 41:10

New International Version (NIV)

¹⁰ So do not fear, for I am with you;
    do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Take Over My Life

Lord this is all of me
On my back, on my hands, and on my feet
They're pushing me down to the ground
So before You I kneel down on my knees

Lord this is all of me
On my head, in my heart, crushing my soul
They're slashing my mind into pieces
So before You I kneel down on my knees

And pray..

I surrender to You Almighty God
I surrender to Your Power
You take over my life
You take over my life

There are so many things
I don't know, why and how, all just happened
All the cry and the complaints, I'm deeply saddened
So before You I kneel down on my knees

There are so many things
I am faced, big giants, i'm shaking Lord
All the fuss and pressure, my faith is strained
So before You I kneel down on my knees

And pray...

Good Morning November

“He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.” 2 Corinthians 3:6 NIV

Good Morning God,

Thank you for your guidance last night, thank you for letting me awake all healthy this morning,
Thank you for the wonderful time you let me had last evening with him,
Thank you for the no-more-nightmare :)

Dear God,
I'm working now and please guide me through the day
Please protect me and my family and loved ones out of danger
May today I bring blessings to people

Please forgive me for my wrong doings..

God, I believe You will perform wonders by wonders to me before the end of the year..
And I can tell the world that walking with God is the best decision I could ever made..

Thank you God,

xoxo,
Agnes

On My brighter side of the spectrum

On my brighter side of the spectrum these weeks,
He brings a smile across my face
He brings that tingling feeling inside
God, could it possibly be him?


While on the other spectrum, Guy A made me sad..
But thank God I don't have any feelings anymore for Guy A.

My Love Life is Ok

As I have opened up myself to a guy from the K Country
You jumped in again..

sigh..

Anyway enough about Guy A..

K Country Guy seems like a nice guy..he sent me files on some nice K songs..I love especially Tim's rendition of We Are The Reason..it's so lovely. A lovely Christian song, a lovely voice, oh I just adore his rendition to it.

I'm starting MuayThai Cardio this Saturday afternoon.. K Guy doesn't seem to be very pleased about it, but I want to do it...I want to loose all these excess fat and I've already done done deal with friends to do Muay Thai together.

I've started singing for my church, which honestly..My heart is not fully there. Dear God, I hope I can be full heartedly serving You as a singer..

I've started working casually as wedding singer as well.. and I've learnt a lot of mental lessons there, I gain knowledge as how to perform well.

My 'core-unit' is still the same..last Saturday, **p gave us lecture and I lectured him back...I still respect him but if things get super out of the line then I have no other way but to snap it right there.
Why does God let all the turbulence happen to to what he cares the most? That's because he never listened to us as well..Taking decision all by himself without our concern, yet he's demanding us too much. He doesn't do what he preach. It's a sad sad situation.

But other than that, i told him so many times, told myself so many times, I'm just gonna work professionally. Dayum, why can't adults think like a child?? Why are they have to be so complicated as they grow older older and older. It's about forgiveness isn't it..

I guess yesterday's cell group's sharing is the right one for me.. My weakest point is that I don't have enough faith to take all of these burden..to lift em up to God. It's heavy. My logic outrun my faith..not good.  So I'm trying my best.

Anyway, to lighten up the subject.. a friend told me her love story yesterday and she's in a big dillema..I understand.. she's getting close to 30 but she's faced with this very difficult love situation. Rather than forcing oneself to be with someone that one doesn't love, doesn't have that much of a chemistry, I'd say, don't force it. Marriage is once in a lifetime..I would hate to force my feelings on a guy just because of my growing-old age. Yes I'm getting older by numbers, but what's important is the heart, the mind, the spirit to mature. Making friends here and there, open up, and be a little more sensitive and tolerant.
Eventually God's timing is the best timing. If Abraham's Sarah could get pregnant while she's already in her granny's age, then nothing is impossible for us women who wait for God's chosen man.

So my love life is ok.. i just hope my other life's aspect is ok too..

My Best Buddy

During my trip to Thailand,
I met my best bud,
Don't know when I will have the chance again to see him
But he's going to stay in my heart for quite a long time.

He took care of me when everyone else failed
He showed much love and understanding
He gave me protection when I needed it

He sacrificed his time and energy, he gave all out his heart for us..
Although he's weird, very annoying, but he's such a warm and big hearted guy.

No, he ain't a Christian
But I don't see him differently
He's what many Christian guys are supposed to be like
Sincere and Gentle.

We scolded each other endlessly
But we know we like eachother
We have different habits
But we know we have chemistry

He, I shall say, my Thai soul-mate.
He, I shall say, a true quality of : a friend in need is a friend in deed.
A best-friend I'm very grateful to God for.

Morning Gratitude

Dear God,

Thank You for I can breathe today
Thank You for I can think today
Thank You for I can walk, talk, and do things with this mind and body You gave me

Thank You for my family
Despite all the imperfections
You never abandon us

Thank You for my friends
Thank You for the beautiful personalities
You never let me alone

Thank You for shaping me
Through my family, my friends, my work, and the news of the world
Thank You for moulding me
You are bigger than my problems

Thank You for keeping us safe from  harm
I shall walk in faith and not by sight
Through trials and turmoils
Thank You for holding me through

I believe Your plan is a great plan for me
A beautiful and happy life
Journey with You is all I ever needed

Maybe This One

You shuffle in my mind
You popped up on my recently played
As numero uno
Again I'm constantly thinking about you
Songs reminding me of you
How can I ever get out
How can I ever leave you behind

Happy to get texts from you
Happy to chat with you
But we both know we're wrong
We both know struggles coming up
If we continue on

I know it sounds stupid to some
Why would beliefs even matter
But living in a culture like ours
It ain't easy
It ain't easy

We're both single damn we're right
We connect really well damn well
But living in a culture like ours
It ain't easy
It ain't easy

Like my favourite song
You're my number one chart
God please give me true love
To let go this one
God please give me true love
Or maybe this one
Just maybe

New Life Afterwards

Dear God,

A lot has happened lately..
I sometimes can't digest fully how Your Grace is so sufficient for me.. Almost everyday, I never said Thank You for all You've done for me. I never truly think of what You want me to do while on earth...
Almost everyday, I never quite appreciate things I have, from health to wealth.
I'm not saying I'm wealthy in earthly terms.. but I long to be wealthy in You.
I haven't quite found the right guy..But I know You are preparing the best guy for me somewhere right now.
Your timing is perfect.

I had chilling moments when Giant suddenly hugged me in church, when he planted a kiss on my head in front of everyone..but God..that one son of Yours needs some flirtatious control.

My heart still skips a little bit everytime I hear / see Guy A's name / photo.. God..Would you please help me get over him..by..I don't know..

God..it's now the time for me to say thank you, to appreciate everything You've done for me.
Thank you that beyond my parent's imperfection, beyond my flaws, You still love us very very much.

Thank You God that only by Your guidance and favor I can go through all these..
Thank You God that You are teaching me through my works and my relationship with others...

Thank You God for being my Father...

My Last Day @ EBH

Last day..30 minutes to go...

Thank you E, thank you R, R, Y.. you guys have shaped my professional life the way I am now.
I've learnt a lot , professional wise, character wise, and knowledge wise.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to work here. I quite enjoyed it and I'm blessed to have you guys as co-workers.

Thank you for the best wishes.

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I'm gonna have Band practice tonight after work, but might take a shower first then change to shorts or something, chill a little. I hope tonight's jam is a productive one.

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Giant and Mr 31 asked me out to company them hunting for men's stuffs. Too bad I already have plans with my band, otherwise I would've loved to hunt as well for clothes and stuffs. Giant btw, wrote very flirty pick up lines for me yesterday on my organizer :P

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I was having a dilemma with Guy A this morning. Now that he texted me back about 1-2 hours ago, for some stupid reason, it put back a smile on to my face.

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I'd been emailing with Clar my bestie in Brunei. She's so funny and I like her advices. If she's not there, I'd be super bored to death. It's really good we're still in contact with each other almost every day.

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30 minutes to go. I gave them cakes and snacks as farewell gifts, I hope they like them. Seems like they like them :).

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Bye Bye Jl. Siaga, I'll miss you. But I'm gonna have to move forward.

A note from Kevin, a corresponder in L.A :)

Hi Agnes,

Sorry for delay reply, was out of town for 2 days…

Receive below message well, and will arrange with Terah on pick-up arrangements.

Further, receive your message well on leaving company…feel sad though, but you need to move forward.

Please no worry another big “door” is waiting for you…much blessed on your new adventures.

Really nice corresponding with you. Anything you need, please feel free to ask.

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About yesterday,

Guy A and I had been texting each other non stop. We had a break 1-2 hours then continue texting each other again. I can feel that we are currently on the stage before we argued last November. We're back to square1. He sent me photos like how he used to. He asked me what I was doing, where I was, where I was having dinner at, have I reached home, he told me to go shower, he said good night and sweet dreams. It's totally back to square1.

Mr P , he's like a normal friend to me. To me, he sounded like he wants to be friends with me. We just happen to not have the chance hanging out together just yet, but it feels like we could actually be friends with each other, so I'm cool with it.

Now Wednesday..I'm out of here by Friday..Oh Dear God, please show me signs on where should I be heading from here.

This Friday I'm going to have Band practice till late night. God, whatever dispute, whatever disagreement, please put all those aside..

I have no idea why I keep posting about my love life here in Blog.. but I guess it's interesting to see where things end up at. Oh well.

I've been having weird dreams lately. Hate it. Could it be because I'm getting restless I have 2 more days here? Hmm.

Little things part 2

Dear Blog,

Guy A is still texting me..
Last night he started texted me again and we talked , reminisced, and he shared his burden..poor guy :(, he's in tough situation. I want him to know that I'm here for him ..at least for some moral support.
He didn't reply my text last night but he replied this morning saying good morning to me, and apologizing he already fell asleep last night.

I know we're good friends..and I guess that's enough. Nothing more than that. Can't be more than that.

Dear Blog again,

I can't wait till Friday, my last day of work..
Although uncertainty awaits but I'm facing it with optimism..

I'll show my Dad that I can be something huge..way past beyond his expectation or anyone's expectation.


Dear Blog,

I feel like travelling. I want to visit Thailand, and Japan..quite badly.

But before that, I need to get that damn 45kg!

Little Things on Mid February

This Wednesday, people from JakTV are planned to come and visit my friend's coffeeshop to which my sis is going to promote her cupcakes as well. I don't know how it's gonna go but thanks to my friend, he's giving us platform to market our products. I hope people like em :)

I decided to text Guy A yesterday arvo and we'd been texting each other until this morning.. as usual, I replied and he read and no comment..or he might reply later in the arvo or not at all..whatever. We're like playing this little game called reply-no-reply.
Yesterday he texted me blablabla and I just read it but didn't reply until it was late in the evening to which he replied straight away. Is he doing some kind of revenge this time? (-__-)
He's at the island of the gods holidaying or maybe doing some projects, I don't know. He might be busy as well.
Yesterday he asked me out again like "when are we going to hang out? Let's go watch movieeee.."

But the same thing goes to Mr P. We'd been texting each other since Saturday till this morning. I commented his last text and he just read it and no comment. Well, I didn't ask any questions anyway, my reply was more like a statement, so if he doesn't reply I wouldn't hold any grudge against him. Plus, he's at the office and busy.
I told him my sis is going to his office tomorrow to print her name cards and her bf might go with her as well, and mr P commented "Why don't you come hereee insteaddd :D "

As with Giant, he'd say hi to me in front of my mum and sis. But yesterday after church he was pretty busy and so was I, so we didn't have the chance to bump into each other. But he texted me to go dinner and karaoke together with the rest of our cell mates. Too bad, I already have plans set up that evening.

This is my last week working in this office, btw. I don't have much to do except looking for door handle specs, which I don't really like. It's hardware, man..not pretty stuff.

I'm super sleepy as usual.

Oh, i had a super long talk with my friend who's now in Japan. We talked from like..10.14pm (skype time) till 12 midnight.. 2 hours! That's crazy..I don't even know how we could survive talking for 2 hours. All I know was that he's not in a very good mood, so I cheered him up .. a bit. 2 hours..oh my goodness, I think I did most of the talking.

I'm gonna try and work..but my mood is not here.. (-__-)

A Little Valentine Update

Dear Blog,

Guy A texted me yesterday evening asking what I did for Valentine's Day. He said if he's in Jakarta then he would've asked me out on Val's Day - if only I wanted to..Although I was flattered and was happy when he said that.. But I've became more cautious now..All the things he said were never true I guess, so I shouldn't buy any of it.

Yesterday evening tho, altho I was late for dinner but I had great time. Met a couple of new friends, laughed a lot, ate little, but it was a good time. I don't like the photos taken tho.I looked so chubby (T____T). I looked so stretched! There were like 15 of us , since I was late, I sat on the other end of the table but still having lots of fun! My friend Ern was hillarious, her friends, and Imelda was funny as well. The guys on the other end sounded like they're more businessy type. Me and my friends, we talked crap stuffs but I don't need any serious hard-thinking topic, especially on Val's dinner.

Overall, my Valentine dinner was fun!

Today Guy A texted me again where I went for Val's dinner, how it went, have I got off to work, and stuffs like that. But now he hasn't replied anything..This is what I don't like from him. Sometimes whatever I wrote, he'd just read and not reply. I wanted a reply but he just left like that. Weirdo. So, in return, I do that to him sometimes so he knows how it feels. Weird. Last time I ignored him on convo, now he's ignoring me. Fine, be that way. But shyt, I miss him.

Giant is currently hosting on TV and he texted me asking me to pray for him so everything's smooth and no worries no nothing. I think he's doing a great job, he's performing better than last time. He has the energy today and I like it. Good on him!

I'm so not in the mood for working today..still so on post-valentine mood... I can't wait to quit as well, I really want to help my sis with her online cake store thing, I think she can go big.

My 7PM band is going well as well, we're moving to a clear direction and we're gonna have a full night practice this Friday. I hope everything turns out great and I hope inspiration spirit fills our jamming studio this Friday..amen.

My tummy hurts..After yesterday's lunch my tummy felt funny and it still feels funny :(

I'm scared I might melt...

Hello Blog,

It’s now counting 2 weeks before my departure from the office I’m working at now…

It’s kind of sad…I felt bad for my boss and his assistant. They’d like me to stay, but I insisted to go.

Well, as much as I like working here..I need to move on.

But seriously, they’re great people with wonderful personalities, they’ll succeed, I’m sure.

As for yesterday, I went to church with a couple of my band mates and my mum and sis.

Saw Giant, he’s in charge again with the whole Service thing, making sure everything went smooth and all that.

After Service, my mates introduced me to their friends (who played as part of the Service’s band). Not long after, Giant approached me while I was about to leave my mates and go see my mum and sis outside. He touched my neck again and it’s ticklish. I was like “Hey! Ticklish!” and he smiled widely. And guess what..my mum and sis saw it.

Mum and Sis were at the back of the hall. Mum said Giant had been noticing me while I was in the front for quite some time before he finally approached me.

Also,while me mum and sis and mates and mum’s friend were at the church lobby making this closed circle thing (you know what I meant right? Talking circling each other), he’d dropped a quick glance once in a while. While he's passing our circle, he poked my left hips (-__-) . My mum and sis kinda saw it but they thought he just moved his arm to bump my back (I’m not sure how to explain it in English haha, but I hope you get me). Oh my goodness, he’s like showing to my mum and sis that he exists, that he..emm..is a friend of mine and I don’t know..He surely has a high dose of confidence.

What more, my mum ofcourse likes him instantly! She said “He’s so good looking!! He’s so much better in real life than on TV!!” And you know my mum..she said she’ll pray me and him are going to be together. Just because he’s so good looking. Doh. Hahaha. (-___-“)

He texted me yesterday evening and texted me again this morning, and I do enjoy him teasing me and getting flirty and all that, I’m seriously scared I might fall..I’m scared I might melt!

a surprise call...

Guy A..The guy whom I let wandering around into my heart gave me a call last night. My phone was on silent as I was at my cell friend's house. As soon as I checked my phone, I was so surprised, excited at the same time, to find his name on my missed-call list..

I texted him saying sorry blablabla, then we kept texting each other until around 11pm when he decided to call me again.
As soon as I said Hello, and he said Hi, and I felt like somehow his voice sounded happy. It's like how you smile widely and talk at the same time..yeah we both sounded like that last night.
I guess..we've been missing each other's voices and company..

We talked till 12 midnight. We talked about quite a lot of stuffs, catching up on each other, he asked me out for movies, future lunch catching up and stuffs..There's nothing romantic while we talked but it's like good friends who haven't been in touch with each other for so long.

We haven't talked to each other since early November..and I truly enjoyed our last night conversation..it's like releasing all the 'miss u-miss me' thing.

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This morning Giant texted me just to say hi and flirty as always..and Guy A texted me as well..and as desperate or guilty as it may sound, I actually hope he'd call me again sometime today or tomorrow or just..call me again sometime in the future. Damn it! I quite get the chemistry with Guy A. But I know we kinda can't be together anyway, and I've been cutting all the past feelings I had for him and just see him as a good friend. I enjoy his company.

Hmm..and anyway, Giant has been texting me everyday now.. I'm happy to have him as a friend..although he's a very flirtatious human being but I quite like him , as a friend, ofcourse.
He was asking our cell mates on what we're doing on Val's Day..and he'd like to have a get together with us. The youngest girl in our cell asked him why he didn't celebrate it with his gf and he answered ."Doh, isn't it obvious? Why would I ask you guys to hang out with me then?" What does that mean?? They're fighting? They're not together anymore? Is that why Giant has been texting me more frequently than ever ? Perhaps because he's a little lonely right now?

Oh well..life is quite interesting so far..

And what more, I got a Thai name! My friend, Yee, gave me the name based on my English name , d.o.b, etc, and she came up with Natnicha, I think it's a lovely name! She said it's a beautiful Thai name and my other Thai friend agreed, so..Sawadheeka, I'm Natnicha ;).

Lovely Sunday

It was a lovely Sunday, fun Sunday, crazy Sunday..with my cell mates :)

Thank God for them!

Finally got introduced to a guy whom I've seen a lot in church but never get to know him. He then said "oh this Agnes..the one who you can find always sits with J and A. " ..(^^")..so I guess people notice huh.

During sermon Giant and A sat next to me and as always he's so annoying he wiped black ink from his fingers to my hand. We then all went for early dinner and Giant ordered beer and he gave half to me. I haven't even drink it when I found out the girl across me just finished it..and Giant's not too happy about it..lol..she's a little unique :P.

We went off karaoke and it was one of the best Karaoke session I've ever had so far..
We all danced, we all went a little gaga and we had two hours full of fun! A recorded videos and photos of Sunday night event.. I bet there wud be some embarrassing moments captured!

Then we went to have some Chatime, took photos again and off we went home.

I arrived home at around 10.30ish and so friggin tired but I kinda missed my mum and my sis so I went to their room and we chatted till near 12.

What more, my bestie reported me a shocking news that happened to her other bestie and my goodness..not a very nice ending for the happy Sunday..

But as the morning rose, about 5.49am Giant texted me to wish him good luck stuffs coz he'd be on air at 7.30am.. So off again I went to bed and dreamt shortly about him (-__-) , we're in this..lodge and I was so sleepy and he kept on waking me up and so I woke up..and it's 7.15ish am..(^^")..weird morning.

And now I'm so sleepy in the office. My boss is truly a weird..boss. His mood changes like a click away. (-_-")

Can't wait to go home in 30 min time and rest.. I'm feeling so tired today..dunno why.~

But nevertheless, I heart yesterday :).

Miraculous Work

God is real.

His power is illimitable.

Let me share here what happened.

So my sister broke her tendon tissue at both of her knees months ago and just got operated early January this year. Doctor said after 3 months she should be able to walk normally, but yes, she has to wait for 3 months, disabled. I've seen her struggling to walk and she said it hurts.

Yesterday night a Romo came to our house. My parents met him on a funeral in Surabaya. This Romo was going for Jakarta for a day and my parents invited him to stay at our place for the night.

He saw my sister and offered to pray for healing miracle for my sister. He prayed to God and touched my sister's knees. My sis said it felt like her heart beat just transferred into her knees. She could feel the beating and no more hurt afterwards. Romo told her to stand up and walk and she could walk properly like a normal person would. She could climb the stairs with confidence.

I went home and found her all smiling and I saw her walking confidently with my own bare eyes and I was speechless.

God can use anyone, anytime, and anywhere.

This is so match with the scripture I read yesterday in 1 Corinthian which noted that we'll be surprised by God's favor.

Praise The Lord!

*ps. he prayed for me this morning as well. He told me I have good eyes, sharp eyes and he said I'm good. He prayed so God would take away my weaknesses and darkness from me and fill me with God's light. Thanks God, starting on today I won't browse the net for horoscopes anymore ;P..Drinking with friends.. I'll just drink normally but not crazy like I used to. I'm sorry God if I ever made You dissappointed in me. I'm changing and I want You to guide me.

The Giant and Me

Dear Blog,

Last Sunday I went to Church and Giant was in charge as the manager making sure that everything is according to procedure. I was late and didn’t know who to sit with.

So as I stepped in into the hall, I saw a few of my cell mates and they suggested me to sit at the front. Then as I walked to the front, Giant suddenly pulled my hair gently and said hi.

I told him I had no idea where to sit and who’s gonna sit beside me and he said he’s gonna sit next to me. So he put his papers straightaway beside my seat. The other guy – my cell mate also said he’s gonna accompany me and put his jacket next to me. So I’m squeezed between two giant dudes.

I was standing alone for few minutes until they came and sat with me. As soon as Giant sat, he said “You smell nice.” And gave me a smile. Giant also said “To me you’re the prettiest” and stuffs like “I think we should go on a date.” “You know you’re so good at putting me down and I’m not gonna give up on you.”

After church service, we all waited outside, my cell members wanted to go to this mall and Giant was supposed to go with them, but he ended up saying he’s too lazy to drive and so yeah we had early dinner together, just the two of us and he treated me. I didn’t go with them coz I was killing time before meeting my other friend at some other place in about 1 hour.

From church to restaurant downstairs he kept on bugging me like playing with my hair and stuff. He did that infront of my other cell mates and he didn’t care. Even at church he’d grab my right hand if he had the chance and pretended like he wanted to eat my hand. After church service he played with my hair as well infront of our cell leader..he’s very straightforward.

Anyway, he sat next to me during dinner and put his arm around my chair’s back. It was weird, I thought he’s gonna sat infront of me..I was like..so this is a date huh, we were just talking about it last night and that Sunday..and who knew his wish was granted that day!

So off I went to other mall and met my other friends.

He was such a sweet Giant..he already has a girlfriend tho.. So no matter how sweet he’s to me, I only see him as a sweet friend, and nothing more than that. I’m not gonna even try and flirt with him.

He was on air this morning and I got the chance to watch him hosted. He’s pretty cool there. So I took a picture from the tv screen and sent it to our cell group blackberry group. Good on him, I think he did a good job.

I’m still standing strong, but what I’m scared of is..if he keeps on being all that sweet to me, he might have my knees getting weaker and I’m scared I might fall later.

I’m still a little numb from my past romance..but geez, this Giant is such a sweet talker! I’m scared.

I can even write this much about him..I guess I just like it when he’s being sweet to me..I just like the sensation of having someone as famous and charming as him ..liking a shortie girl like me.

Thursday Gaga

What happened yesterday was very interesting..

Giant Guy was being very sweet to me yesterday..this flirty good looking dude whom I don't really like was acting really sweet and I actually bought half of whatever he did and said.

What turned me off was the fact he already has a girlfriend and there's no way I'm coming in the middle.

He was defending me when I was bullied by this dude..
He was quite upset when I told him I was bullied by this mid-east man in the lift..

So this mid-east guy looked at me while we're waiting for the door into the lift area to be openned. We both didn't have the access.. He was huge.. he has 2 other guy friends, they looked like gangsters.. Anyway, I got into the same lift and there were many people but they all got off at 18, and left only me to lvl 23 and him to lvl 32. From 18 to 23, he tried to talk me into going to his room.. damn it man..i told him i don't speak indo yet he insisted of asking me to be his indo tutor..wth..ofcourse I know what he 'wanted'!

I ran as soon as I reached lvl 23 to my friend's room. I was shaking.. as I openned the door everyone warm welcome me but I was shaking.. It was scary..

Giant was in the room. After meeting, he asked me what happened so I just blurted it all out and I didn't realize much that he was stroking my hair as I spoke. Only after I finished I realized he's still stroking my hair infront of everyone, so I pushed his arm away.

I wouldn't lie that it felt comfortable. Oh man..it was one scary experience in the lift..

When we're going down waiting for the lift, giant also punched his fist 3x onto the wall..showing how upset he was, prolly imagining the bastard bullying me.

It felt good that he showed he cared.. But dude, got gf alredy..mehh.. I'll just see it as a big bro taking after his lil sis..that'll do.

He was defending me the whole day from bullies..including from Mr Big Bro.. Such a sweet guy.

My Diet Plan and A Little Bit of Everything

Today! I'm meeting my 7PM band..*looking forward for this!

Uluyu's done and now just have to wait for Nno's quote and prototype progress..yeheyy!

Love life: Interesting. Hard for me to fall in love, so much to consider. Not saying I'm perfect..but I guess I'm like a hard nut to crack.once I let someone in, it's hard to let go. So Guetta feat Fergie - Gettin Over You <== is quite me.

Goal by the end of this month: Loose 2kg.
Started off at 51.5kg, today at 51.1kg, and it's 18th Jan..Hopefully by 31st, it's 49.1kg

Eating Plan:
Morning - fruits only
Lunch - Office as usual
Dinner - GO gaga during weekend only.
Usual Dinner - just eat a handful of snacks. That's all.

I hope by Friday I could get to 50.5kg or at least by Saturday morning 50.5kg.
I'll be buffetting on Saturday, so might rise again..damn it.

Well I have to reach 49.5 at least by end of month..that's the max weight..>.<.. can I make it >.<

Writing Down My Plans

Dear Blog,

I think it's about time to write down my plan for this year although I had written it down in my agenda.

My aim is to learn lots of money, this year I'm aiming to reach at least double the salary I got from this firm I'm working at.

January Plan:
Get 7PM going for demo recording
Get Uluyu prototyped
Get design project for my friend's dad factory
Get auditioned for singer position at church
Soft Launching Desserts Department before CNY

February Plan:
Get 7PM gigs
Uluyu in Progress
Desserts Department promo for Valentine's Day
Freelance in the house!
Quit Job! Time to move on!

March Plan:
Can't wait for more fun and dynamics months and years ahead!!! Perhaps meeting that someone special this year ;)

I sent our cupcakes samples to two different groups and most of them like it i guess..I hope this is all going well, God, if you said yes, the favor is in da house!

Wagyu Night Bday

Dear Bloggie,

I was so happy last night my cell group friends gave me a surprise bash :).

They didn't let me pay my portion, and this Just Giant just kept ordering food for me to finish. I love sweet stuffs, they're good!

I shall do something in return for them.. Perhaps I should bake Lapis Surabaya for them next week :).

Finished up at 11.30ish pm, they waited all that long for me and I'm so touched..

Thank you God for these wonderful people around me.

This year has been really good so far. I'm loving my birthday moments this year :)).

Such A Special Day : )

It’s my birthday today and I’m feeling like ": ) "

So many best wishes from family and friends and they’re keeping my mood happy all day so far : )

I’m feeling extra special today, so,

Thank You, God : )

Please bless them with wisdom, kindness, good health, success, and loads of love.

: )

I'm gonna celebrate it in the hospital with my sis ..This is probably one of the most interesting birthday I've ever had =P