You.

You made smile when you said you missed me this afternoon…

It kinda made my day…

I feel so stupid and helpless..

I don’t know what spell you put unto me..

After talking to my cousin yesterday…

She put me into a new perspective..Good on her!

She made me realize that I should put myself in your shoes…

It’s not easy being you..

You’ve been holding up your head,standing strong through trials and triumphs…

At such a young age, you’ve been holding a really big responsibility…

A lot of people are relying on you…

You have to make a lot of decision ..big decisions..

I’m trying to understand you..

I guess I’ve been so selfish that I want you to be like what I want you to be..

While I should’ve been more mature than that…

Although I still think it’s kinda unfair because I still feel like you’re tagging me..

But..

I’ll be patient and understanding …

I hope everything turns out beautiful for both of us..whatever that might be…

Where Are We Going..

I like it when you get a little jealous

I like it when you get a little possessive

But where are we going ..seriously.. (-_-)

You get jealous..you get possessive..

But we’re not even in a relationship

Where are going..seriously…(-_-)

What's up with you?

I don't understand you lately..
You're different from the way you were last week..
You started texting me again..
You started texting me good morning this morning...
You called me again this morning...

Just about time when I'm training myself to let you go..

I don't get that excitement anymore when you called me..
Instead of happiness I feel sadness..
I guess I'm a little numb...

I tried to laugh and be cheerful as usual..but I couldn't..
If you ask me whether I like you as much as last week? No I don't...
I'm trying to let you go
I've been building up walls to cover myself..but now you're back to the way you were 2 weeks ago..

What's up with you?

Grab a Beer and Do myself a Favor

Weekend was lovely but you're the only one occupying my mind...
Until I've arrived to this stage where I'm telling myself I'm gonna be a cold-blooded girl this week..

A friend of mine told me an inspiring story of my love life right now = train crash.
Sooner or later the train is going to hit me, so what am I gonna do? While I have no other option but standing on the track waiting for it to hit me, am I gonna spend the time I have left worrying? Or am I gonna grab a chair, a beer and chill; have a good time while I can until it comes.
So, I'm choosing to grab a beer and enjoy myself instead of worrying.
When it hits me then boom.. at least I didn't waste my time worrying too much..At least, I did myself a favor..

Well you texted me last night..and it was a cute conversation we had..
You mentioned about wanting to hang out with me this week..
I cannot lie to myself that I do wish you'd confirm to me sometime this week that we're going somewhere this weekend..
I cannot lie to myself that I do wish you could be the way you were back 2 weeks ago when we haven't had any religious discussion..
As much as I wanted to say hi to you..
I've promised myself and to my dear friend that I'm not going to text you first this week..

You said to me sleeptight and sweetdreams..I said to you goodnight right on the same minute but up until now you haven't read it..still delivered but not read..Maybe you've read it..I don't know..
I can't help myself but to check my blackberry every now and then and wished you've read my last message..

I'm battling with myself..
I'm trying to let you go slowly..
What this week's going to bring..I don't know..
I'm trying to be a cold-blooded, I'm not letting my emotion controls my action...
I'm trying to grab a beer and do myself a favor..

This guy called GIANT

This guy, is friggin annoying..

He calls me his pet..

Calls me smurfette..

Calls me kiddo..

So I call him GIANT...

And what more…

He said I’m his type..

I said "Nice try"

He replied "I'm serious"

I asked again "Is this one of your practical jokes?"

And so he replied "I'm serious bout saying you're my type."

He said he like me all that..

But to him, I’m still his pet..

What the?

I ask him does he flirt to a lot of girls?

He laughed and said “Not really..Only to the cute one.”

I said “I think you’re missing an ‘s’ after ‘one’ “

He then said “Only one means you.”

Okay…

He said “U r mine!”

He said he’ll come to my house since I was sick..

I said “Don’t make me dare you!”

He replied “Don’t make me kiss you.”

This guy got me so confused..zzz

Yes I've Been A Fool

What a fool

Yes I’ve been a fool

To let myself run into you

What a man

Could come into my world

And care to me like I’ve never been cared before

You’ve made me idle

My world starts to revolve around you

You’ve made me idle

I can’t move on unless I’m with you

What have you done

What part is it

That glued me so much to you

I’m still questioning, yes until now I don’t understand myself

They try to make me stay away from you

I bet they do the same to you

I wish we could just leave that one issue alone

Put it in a box, lock it forever, and throw it away, far , far away

Then we can be together…

Maybe I have to be smart

Although I’ve always been a fool

Whenever you’re around

But maybe I have to be smart

Reaching out for other hands

Letting myself fall into their arms

Because you’re keeping me in suspense

You’re keeping me in anxiety

But I’ll treasure every moment I have with you

You have been the reason why I’ve been smiling

As if the flowers blossom all year long

If in deed we’re not meant to be together

I’ll let my tears fall onto the paths we’ve travelled

To mark how a fool once and for the last time, travelled the path full of bitter sweet memories

Yes, she's been a fool.

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