My Last Day @ EBH

Last day..30 minutes to go...

Thank you E, thank you R, R, Y.. you guys have shaped my professional life the way I am now.
I've learnt a lot , professional wise, character wise, and knowledge wise.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to work here. I quite enjoyed it and I'm blessed to have you guys as co-workers.

Thank you for the best wishes.

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I'm gonna have Band practice tonight after work, but might take a shower first then change to shorts or something, chill a little. I hope tonight's jam is a productive one.

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Giant and Mr 31 asked me out to company them hunting for men's stuffs. Too bad I already have plans with my band, otherwise I would've loved to hunt as well for clothes and stuffs. Giant btw, wrote very flirty pick up lines for me yesterday on my organizer :P

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I was having a dilemma with Guy A this morning. Now that he texted me back about 1-2 hours ago, for some stupid reason, it put back a smile on to my face.

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I'd been emailing with Clar my bestie in Brunei. She's so funny and I like her advices. If she's not there, I'd be super bored to death. It's really good we're still in contact with each other almost every day.

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30 minutes to go. I gave them cakes and snacks as farewell gifts, I hope they like them. Seems like they like them :).

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Bye Bye Jl. Siaga, I'll miss you. But I'm gonna have to move forward.

A note from Kevin, a corresponder in L.A :)

Hi Agnes,

Sorry for delay reply, was out of town for 2 days…

Receive below message well, and will arrange with Terah on pick-up arrangements.

Further, receive your message well on leaving company…feel sad though, but you need to move forward.

Please no worry another big “door” is waiting for you…much blessed on your new adventures.

Really nice corresponding with you. Anything you need, please feel free to ask.

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About yesterday,

Guy A and I had been texting each other non stop. We had a break 1-2 hours then continue texting each other again. I can feel that we are currently on the stage before we argued last November. We're back to square1. He sent me photos like how he used to. He asked me what I was doing, where I was, where I was having dinner at, have I reached home, he told me to go shower, he said good night and sweet dreams. It's totally back to square1.

Mr P , he's like a normal friend to me. To me, he sounded like he wants to be friends with me. We just happen to not have the chance hanging out together just yet, but it feels like we could actually be friends with each other, so I'm cool with it.

Now Wednesday..I'm out of here by Friday..Oh Dear God, please show me signs on where should I be heading from here.

This Friday I'm going to have Band practice till late night. God, whatever dispute, whatever disagreement, please put all those aside..

I have no idea why I keep posting about my love life here in Blog.. but I guess it's interesting to see where things end up at. Oh well.

I've been having weird dreams lately. Hate it. Could it be because I'm getting restless I have 2 more days here? Hmm.

Little things part 2

Dear Blog,

Guy A is still texting me..
Last night he started texted me again and we talked , reminisced, and he shared his burden..poor guy :(, he's in tough situation. I want him to know that I'm here for him ..at least for some moral support.
He didn't reply my text last night but he replied this morning saying good morning to me, and apologizing he already fell asleep last night.

I know we're good friends..and I guess that's enough. Nothing more than that. Can't be more than that.

Dear Blog again,

I can't wait till Friday, my last day of work..
Although uncertainty awaits but I'm facing it with optimism..

I'll show my Dad that I can be something huge..way past beyond his expectation or anyone's expectation.


Dear Blog,

I feel like travelling. I want to visit Thailand, and Japan..quite badly.

But before that, I need to get that damn 45kg!

Little Things on Mid February

This Wednesday, people from JakTV are planned to come and visit my friend's coffeeshop to which my sis is going to promote her cupcakes as well. I don't know how it's gonna go but thanks to my friend, he's giving us platform to market our products. I hope people like em :)

I decided to text Guy A yesterday arvo and we'd been texting each other until this morning.. as usual, I replied and he read and no comment..or he might reply later in the arvo or not at all..whatever. We're like playing this little game called reply-no-reply.
Yesterday he texted me blablabla and I just read it but didn't reply until it was late in the evening to which he replied straight away. Is he doing some kind of revenge this time? (-__-)
He's at the island of the gods holidaying or maybe doing some projects, I don't know. He might be busy as well.
Yesterday he asked me out again like "when are we going to hang out? Let's go watch movieeee.."

But the same thing goes to Mr P. We'd been texting each other since Saturday till this morning. I commented his last text and he just read it and no comment. Well, I didn't ask any questions anyway, my reply was more like a statement, so if he doesn't reply I wouldn't hold any grudge against him. Plus, he's at the office and busy.
I told him my sis is going to his office tomorrow to print her name cards and her bf might go with her as well, and mr P commented "Why don't you come hereee insteaddd :D "

As with Giant, he'd say hi to me in front of my mum and sis. But yesterday after church he was pretty busy and so was I, so we didn't have the chance to bump into each other. But he texted me to go dinner and karaoke together with the rest of our cell mates. Too bad, I already have plans set up that evening.

This is my last week working in this office, btw. I don't have much to do except looking for door handle specs, which I don't really like. It's hardware, man..not pretty stuff.

I'm super sleepy as usual.

Oh, i had a super long talk with my friend who's now in Japan. We talked from like..10.14pm (skype time) till 12 midnight.. 2 hours! That's crazy..I don't even know how we could survive talking for 2 hours. All I know was that he's not in a very good mood, so I cheered him up .. a bit. 2 hours..oh my goodness, I think I did most of the talking.

I'm gonna try and work..but my mood is not here.. (-__-)

A Little Valentine Update

Dear Blog,

Guy A texted me yesterday evening asking what I did for Valentine's Day. He said if he's in Jakarta then he would've asked me out on Val's Day - if only I wanted to..Although I was flattered and was happy when he said that.. But I've became more cautious now..All the things he said were never true I guess, so I shouldn't buy any of it.

Yesterday evening tho, altho I was late for dinner but I had great time. Met a couple of new friends, laughed a lot, ate little, but it was a good time. I don't like the photos taken tho.I looked so chubby (T____T). I looked so stretched! There were like 15 of us , since I was late, I sat on the other end of the table but still having lots of fun! My friend Ern was hillarious, her friends, and Imelda was funny as well. The guys on the other end sounded like they're more businessy type. Me and my friends, we talked crap stuffs but I don't need any serious hard-thinking topic, especially on Val's dinner.

Overall, my Valentine dinner was fun!

Today Guy A texted me again where I went for Val's dinner, how it went, have I got off to work, and stuffs like that. But now he hasn't replied anything..This is what I don't like from him. Sometimes whatever I wrote, he'd just read and not reply. I wanted a reply but he just left like that. Weirdo. So, in return, I do that to him sometimes so he knows how it feels. Weird. Last time I ignored him on convo, now he's ignoring me. Fine, be that way. But shyt, I miss him.

Giant is currently hosting on TV and he texted me asking me to pray for him so everything's smooth and no worries no nothing. I think he's doing a great job, he's performing better than last time. He has the energy today and I like it. Good on him!

I'm so not in the mood for working today..still so on post-valentine mood... I can't wait to quit as well, I really want to help my sis with her online cake store thing, I think she can go big.

My 7PM band is going well as well, we're moving to a clear direction and we're gonna have a full night practice this Friday. I hope everything turns out great and I hope inspiration spirit fills our jamming studio this Friday..amen.

My tummy hurts..After yesterday's lunch my tummy felt funny and it still feels funny :(

I'm scared I might melt...

Hello Blog,

It’s now counting 2 weeks before my departure from the office I’m working at now…

It’s kind of sad…I felt bad for my boss and his assistant. They’d like me to stay, but I insisted to go.

Well, as much as I like working here..I need to move on.

But seriously, they’re great people with wonderful personalities, they’ll succeed, I’m sure.

As for yesterday, I went to church with a couple of my band mates and my mum and sis.

Saw Giant, he’s in charge again with the whole Service thing, making sure everything went smooth and all that.

After Service, my mates introduced me to their friends (who played as part of the Service’s band). Not long after, Giant approached me while I was about to leave my mates and go see my mum and sis outside. He touched my neck again and it’s ticklish. I was like “Hey! Ticklish!” and he smiled widely. And guess what..my mum and sis saw it.

Mum and Sis were at the back of the hall. Mum said Giant had been noticing me while I was in the front for quite some time before he finally approached me.

Also,while me mum and sis and mates and mum’s friend were at the church lobby making this closed circle thing (you know what I meant right? Talking circling each other), he’d dropped a quick glance once in a while. While he's passing our circle, he poked my left hips (-__-) . My mum and sis kinda saw it but they thought he just moved his arm to bump my back (I’m not sure how to explain it in English haha, but I hope you get me). Oh my goodness, he’s like showing to my mum and sis that he exists, that he..emm..is a friend of mine and I don’t know..He surely has a high dose of confidence.

What more, my mum ofcourse likes him instantly! She said “He’s so good looking!! He’s so much better in real life than on TV!!” And you know my mum..she said she’ll pray me and him are going to be together. Just because he’s so good looking. Doh. Hahaha. (-___-“)

He texted me yesterday evening and texted me again this morning, and I do enjoy him teasing me and getting flirty and all that, I’m seriously scared I might fall..I’m scared I might melt!

a surprise call...

Guy A..The guy whom I let wandering around into my heart gave me a call last night. My phone was on silent as I was at my cell friend's house. As soon as I checked my phone, I was so surprised, excited at the same time, to find his name on my missed-call list..

I texted him saying sorry blablabla, then we kept texting each other until around 11pm when he decided to call me again.
As soon as I said Hello, and he said Hi, and I felt like somehow his voice sounded happy. It's like how you smile widely and talk at the same time..yeah we both sounded like that last night.
I guess..we've been missing each other's voices and company..

We talked till 12 midnight. We talked about quite a lot of stuffs, catching up on each other, he asked me out for movies, future lunch catching up and stuffs..There's nothing romantic while we talked but it's like good friends who haven't been in touch with each other for so long.

We haven't talked to each other since early November..and I truly enjoyed our last night conversation..it's like releasing all the 'miss u-miss me' thing.

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This morning Giant texted me just to say hi and flirty as always..and Guy A texted me as well..and as desperate or guilty as it may sound, I actually hope he'd call me again sometime today or tomorrow or just..call me again sometime in the future. Damn it! I quite get the chemistry with Guy A. But I know we kinda can't be together anyway, and I've been cutting all the past feelings I had for him and just see him as a good friend. I enjoy his company.

Hmm..and anyway, Giant has been texting me everyday now.. I'm happy to have him as a friend..although he's a very flirtatious human being but I quite like him , as a friend, ofcourse.
He was asking our cell mates on what we're doing on Val's Day..and he'd like to have a get together with us. The youngest girl in our cell asked him why he didn't celebrate it with his gf and he answered ."Doh, isn't it obvious? Why would I ask you guys to hang out with me then?" What does that mean?? They're fighting? They're not together anymore? Is that why Giant has been texting me more frequently than ever ? Perhaps because he's a little lonely right now?

Oh well..life is quite interesting so far..

And what more, I got a Thai name! My friend, Yee, gave me the name based on my English name , d.o.b, etc, and she came up with Natnicha, I think it's a lovely name! She said it's a beautiful Thai name and my other Thai friend agreed, so..Sawadheeka, I'm Natnicha ;).

Lovely Sunday

It was a lovely Sunday, fun Sunday, crazy Sunday..with my cell mates :)

Thank God for them!

Finally got introduced to a guy whom I've seen a lot in church but never get to know him. He then said "oh this Agnes..the one who you can find always sits with J and A. " ..(^^")..so I guess people notice huh.

During sermon Giant and A sat next to me and as always he's so annoying he wiped black ink from his fingers to my hand. We then all went for early dinner and Giant ordered beer and he gave half to me. I haven't even drink it when I found out the girl across me just finished it..and Giant's not too happy about it..lol..she's a little unique :P.

We went off karaoke and it was one of the best Karaoke session I've ever had so far..
We all danced, we all went a little gaga and we had two hours full of fun! A recorded videos and photos of Sunday night event.. I bet there wud be some embarrassing moments captured!

Then we went to have some Chatime, took photos again and off we went home.

I arrived home at around 10.30ish and so friggin tired but I kinda missed my mum and my sis so I went to their room and we chatted till near 12.

What more, my bestie reported me a shocking news that happened to her other bestie and my goodness..not a very nice ending for the happy Sunday..

But as the morning rose, about 5.49am Giant texted me to wish him good luck stuffs coz he'd be on air at 7.30am.. So off again I went to bed and dreamt shortly about him (-__-) , we're in this..lodge and I was so sleepy and he kept on waking me up and so I woke up..and it's 7.15ish am..(^^")..weird morning.

And now I'm so sleepy in the office. My boss is truly a weird..boss. His mood changes like a click away. (-_-")

Can't wait to go home in 30 min time and rest.. I'm feeling so tired today..dunno why.~

But nevertheless, I heart yesterday :).

Miraculous Work

God is real.

His power is illimitable.

Let me share here what happened.

So my sister broke her tendon tissue at both of her knees months ago and just got operated early January this year. Doctor said after 3 months she should be able to walk normally, but yes, she has to wait for 3 months, disabled. I've seen her struggling to walk and she said it hurts.

Yesterday night a Romo came to our house. My parents met him on a funeral in Surabaya. This Romo was going for Jakarta for a day and my parents invited him to stay at our place for the night.

He saw my sister and offered to pray for healing miracle for my sister. He prayed to God and touched my sister's knees. My sis said it felt like her heart beat just transferred into her knees. She could feel the beating and no more hurt afterwards. Romo told her to stand up and walk and she could walk properly like a normal person would. She could climb the stairs with confidence.

I went home and found her all smiling and I saw her walking confidently with my own bare eyes and I was speechless.

God can use anyone, anytime, and anywhere.

This is so match with the scripture I read yesterday in 1 Corinthian which noted that we'll be surprised by God's favor.

Praise The Lord!

*ps. he prayed for me this morning as well. He told me I have good eyes, sharp eyes and he said I'm good. He prayed so God would take away my weaknesses and darkness from me and fill me with God's light. Thanks God, starting on today I won't browse the net for horoscopes anymore ;P..Drinking with friends.. I'll just drink normally but not crazy like I used to. I'm sorry God if I ever made You dissappointed in me. I'm changing and I want You to guide me.

The Giant and Me

Dear Blog,

Last Sunday I went to Church and Giant was in charge as the manager making sure that everything is according to procedure. I was late and didn’t know who to sit with.

So as I stepped in into the hall, I saw a few of my cell mates and they suggested me to sit at the front. Then as I walked to the front, Giant suddenly pulled my hair gently and said hi.

I told him I had no idea where to sit and who’s gonna sit beside me and he said he’s gonna sit next to me. So he put his papers straightaway beside my seat. The other guy – my cell mate also said he’s gonna accompany me and put his jacket next to me. So I’m squeezed between two giant dudes.

I was standing alone for few minutes until they came and sat with me. As soon as Giant sat, he said “You smell nice.” And gave me a smile. Giant also said “To me you’re the prettiest” and stuffs like “I think we should go on a date.” “You know you’re so good at putting me down and I’m not gonna give up on you.”

After church service, we all waited outside, my cell members wanted to go to this mall and Giant was supposed to go with them, but he ended up saying he’s too lazy to drive and so yeah we had early dinner together, just the two of us and he treated me. I didn’t go with them coz I was killing time before meeting my other friend at some other place in about 1 hour.

From church to restaurant downstairs he kept on bugging me like playing with my hair and stuff. He did that infront of my other cell mates and he didn’t care. Even at church he’d grab my right hand if he had the chance and pretended like he wanted to eat my hand. After church service he played with my hair as well infront of our cell leader..he’s very straightforward.

Anyway, he sat next to me during dinner and put his arm around my chair’s back. It was weird, I thought he’s gonna sat infront of me..I was like..so this is a date huh, we were just talking about it last night and that Sunday..and who knew his wish was granted that day!

So off I went to other mall and met my other friends.

He was such a sweet Giant..he already has a girlfriend tho.. So no matter how sweet he’s to me, I only see him as a sweet friend, and nothing more than that. I’m not gonna even try and flirt with him.

He was on air this morning and I got the chance to watch him hosted. He’s pretty cool there. So I took a picture from the tv screen and sent it to our cell group blackberry group. Good on him, I think he did a good job.

I’m still standing strong, but what I’m scared of is..if he keeps on being all that sweet to me, he might have my knees getting weaker and I’m scared I might fall later.

I’m still a little numb from my past romance..but geez, this Giant is such a sweet talker! I’m scared.

I can even write this much about him..I guess I just like it when he’s being sweet to me..I just like the sensation of having someone as famous and charming as him ..liking a shortie girl like me.