Tuesday, December 20, 2011
How Wonderful :)
It was such a great joy to learn that the uluyu team , all 15 of them loved my design when I sent it yesterday morning. He said my design lifted up the marketing-team spirit and put them on high morale.
Reading his bb and email complementing my design really made my day :).
I never knew design could do such wonderful thing to people.
I never knew my design could impact 15 people.. impacting the company's team in a positive sense.
I feel like I'm worth something.
What I learnt is:
Quit worrying about yourself ( i mean it's okay to worry sometimes..)
Help others with their issues (and yes you're not only doing them favor but you're doing yourself a favor)
And it made me feel like a million bucks..it gets me even excited for this project.
Although the design pressure is all mine, but I'm doing my best to not let them down, to make this project a success and to be like the deaf frog who ended up winning the game because it just went bold to the finish line.
How wonderful :)
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Make Him Regret..
But I do wish I could turn back time and erase all the things I said to him..
I wish I could back even further so I could guard my heart and not let it fall..
But nothing can be changed..the past is now a memory I cannot erase..
Nothing can be done about it..
So I'm crushing the bridges behind me and moving forward..
My good friend told me I don't have to find someone as his replacement...
I just have to live my life, make him regret he let me go...
Make him regret..hmm..
Although I haven't been as happy as I used to when I was with him...
But I'll live my life as if with/without him doesn't matter and doesn't make any huge difference (although it actually did).
I still wonder whether he misses me or not..
But I believe God is preparing me someone, maybe not now..now isn't the right time..
Maybe one day when we meet each other, I'd be wise enough not to repeat the same mistake..
:)
My goal for now is to : loose weight, pretty-up myself, be productive everyday, find a new job (I think I'd do this one pretty soon), pray so God will send me 'the one' sometime next year ;P
Friday, December 9, 2011
If it's not beautiful, it's not the end
Sometimes I don't understand why I did the things I did..
Sometimes I don't understand why I said the things I said..
But what I do understand is that every experience, every person God puts in my life..is to prepare me for the future only He can see.
And if it's not beautiful, it's not the end.
Friday, December 2, 2011
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
You.
You made smile when you said you missed me this afternoon…
It kinda made my day…
I feel so stupid and helpless..
I don’t know what spell you put unto me..
After talking to my cousin yesterday…
She put me into a new perspective..Good on her!
She made me realize that I should put myself in your shoes…
It’s not easy being you..
You’ve been holding up your head,standing strong through trials and triumphs…
At such a young age, you’ve been holding a really big responsibility…
A lot of people are relying on you…
You have to make a lot of decision ..big decisions..
I’m trying to understand you..
I guess I’ve been so selfish that I want you to be like what I want you to be..
While I should’ve been more mature than that…
Although I still think it’s kinda unfair because I still feel like you’re tagging me..
But..
I’ll be patient and understanding …
I hope everything turns out beautiful for both of us..whatever that might be…
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Where Are We Going..
I like it when you get a little jealous
I like it when you get a little possessive
But where are we going ..seriously.. (-_-)
You get jealous..you get possessive..
But we’re not even in a relationship
Where are going..seriously…(-_-)
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
What's up with you?
You're different from the way you were last week..
You started texting me again..
You started texting me good morning this morning...
You called me again this morning...
Just about time when I'm training myself to let you go..
I don't get that excitement anymore when you called me..
Instead of happiness I feel sadness..
I guess I'm a little numb...
I tried to laugh and be cheerful as usual..but I couldn't..
If you ask me whether I like you as much as last week? No I don't...
I'm trying to let you go
I've been building up walls to cover myself..but now you're back to the way you were 2 weeks ago..
What's up with you?
Monday, November 7, 2011
Grab a Beer and Do myself a Favor
Until I've arrived to this stage where I'm telling myself I'm gonna be a cold-blooded girl this week..
A friend of mine told me an inspiring story of my love life right now = train crash.
Sooner or later the train is going to hit me, so what am I gonna do? While I have no other option but standing on the track waiting for it to hit me, am I gonna spend the time I have left worrying? Or am I gonna grab a chair, a beer and chill; have a good time while I can until it comes.
So, I'm choosing to grab a beer and enjoy myself instead of worrying.
When it hits me then boom.. at least I didn't waste my time worrying too much..At least, I did myself a favor..
Well you texted me last night..and it was a cute conversation we had..
You mentioned about wanting to hang out with me this week..
I cannot lie to myself that I do wish you'd confirm to me sometime this week that we're going somewhere this weekend..
I cannot lie to myself that I do wish you could be the way you were back 2 weeks ago when we haven't had any religious discussion..
As much as I wanted to say hi to you..
I've promised myself and to my dear friend that I'm not going to text you first this week..
You said to me sleeptight and sweetdreams..I said to you goodnight right on the same minute but up until now you haven't read it..still delivered but not read..Maybe you've read it..I don't know..
I can't help myself but to check my blackberry every now and then and wished you've read my last message..
I'm battling with myself..
I'm trying to let you go slowly..
What this week's going to bring..I don't know..
I'm trying to be a cold-blooded, I'm not letting my emotion controls my action...
I'm trying to grab a beer and do myself a favor..
Thursday, November 3, 2011
This guy called GIANT
This guy, is friggin annoying..
He calls me his pet..
Calls me smurfette..
Calls me kiddo..
So I call him GIANT...
And what more…
He said I’m his type..
I said "Nice try"
He replied "I'm serious"
I asked again "Is this one of your practical jokes?"
And so he replied "I'm serious bout saying you're my type."
He said he like me all that..
But to him, I’m still his pet..
What the?
I ask him does he flirt to a lot of girls?
He laughed and said “Not really..Only to the cute one.”
I said “I think you’re missing an ‘s’ after ‘one’ “
He then said “Only one means you.”
Okay…
He said “U r mine!”
He said he’ll come to my house since I was sick..
I said “Don’t make me dare you!”
He replied “Don’t make me kiss you.”
This guy got me so confused..zzz
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Yes I've Been A Fool
What a fool
Yes I’ve been a fool
To let myself run into you
What a man
Could come into my world
And care to me like I’ve never been cared before
You’ve made me idle
My world starts to revolve around you
You’ve made me idle
I can’t move on unless I’m with you
What have you done
What part is it
That glued me so much to you
I’m still questioning, yes until now I don’t understand myself
They try to make me stay away from you
I bet they do the same to you
I wish we could just leave that one issue alone
Put it in a box, lock it forever, and throw it away, far , far away
Then we can be together…
Maybe I have to be smart
Although I’ve always been a fool
Whenever you’re around
But maybe I have to be smart
Reaching out for other hands
Letting myself fall into their arms
Because you’re keeping me in suspense
You’re keeping me in anxiety
But I’ll treasure every moment I have with you
You have been the reason why I’ve been smiling
As if the flowers blossom all year long
If in deed we’re not meant to be together
I’ll let my tears fall onto the paths we’ve travelled
To mark how a fool once and for the last time, travelled the path full of bitter sweet memories
Yes, she's been a fool.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Sampai Kapan
Indah yang kita rasakan sampai hari ini
Membuat hari-hariku penuh dengan senyuman
Membuatku mengucap syukur pada Yang Kuasa aku bisa mengenalmu, bisa dekat denganmu
Seakan aku kan terus bersabar menanti
Seakan aku kan terus ada disini untukmu
Sampai kapan kau kan terus berfikir
Apakah hubungan ini untuk selamanya
Kau bilang jangan melihat yang lain
Kau bilang khawatir kehilangan aku
Namun sampai kapan kau kan terus berdalih
Menggantungku disini
Disaat mulai ada yang lain memperhatikanku
Haruskah ku beritahu dirimu
Waktumu hampir habis, sayangku
Haruskah kumengabaikan permintaanmu dan melihat yang lain
Memang kita berbeda keyakinan
Hanya itu satu kendala tiada yang lain
Tapi untukku, cinta sejati seperti mencari berlian diantara banyaknya butiran pasir gurun
Takkan kulepas begitu saja
Kan ku buat semuanya memutar bersumbu pada sang cinta
Hal ini memang sulit
Hal ini memang menyangkut prinsip
Tapi tidak bisakah kau dan aku bersama bersumbu pada cinta dan bukan agama
Mungkin lebih baik untukku tidak mencarimu lagi...
Supaya kamu sadar aku tidak selamanya kan ada disini untukmu..
Mungkin lebih baik aku melihat yang lain...
Supaya kamu sadar aku tidak harus mengikuti skenario misteriusmu.