The Green Mile

Have you ever watched Green Mile? Apart from my admiration to Tom Hanks for his brilliant acting, I love this movie's message and beautiful wise quotes. It's about a life story of corrections officer Paul Edgecomb , E Block supervisor (Green Mile - Death Row) up in Cold Mountain prison whose life changed forever after meeting a prisoner named John Coffey. He's an innocent 'extra-ordinary' black American who had to be punished by electric-chair death punishment set in around 1930s. He was accused of raping and killing two little white girls and was condemned to death by the jury of peers. Through John Coffey, he brought light and changed many people's lives (esp. Paul), for John is known as 'one of God's true miracles'.

Some of the wise quotes that I think worth learning from several scenes:

-Scene where Paul gave John corn bread his wife made as a thankful gift for curing Paul's disease. Two of the inmates wanted shares of the bread (one is a bad guy who rapped and killed the two little girls *at this stage, no one knew about it*, and the other one apparently repented).

Del (prisoner): Oo John I can smell it from here, I surely can..
John: Can I give Del and Mr.Jingles some? (Mr Jingles is the mouse pet of Del)
Paul: Well, it's yours, John. You can do with it as you please.
John: Here. This for Del and Mr. Jingles. (halfed the bread and gave it to Paul)
Wild Bil (bad prisoner): Hey! What about me? I'm gonna get some too, ain't I?
John: (looking unsure)
Paul: It's yours, John. As you please.
John: I think I'll just keep the rest, then.

It's a simple convo, but I got so much out of it. Sometimes we're confused on decisions we ought to make in our lives...Sometimes we depend so much on others that we're standing on a shaky ground...And Freedom of choice.. God gives us freedom to choose our paths, actions, and words..Such treasure that we need to take wisely, like John...I encourage you to think over the quotes.

-Scene when it's the final night before the death sentence. Paul wanted to help John so he doesn't have to be sentenced the next day. Paul is feeling tremendously burdenned because He's about to execute an innocent man.

Paul: John...I have to ask you something very important now.
John: I know what you gonna say.. You don't have to say it.
Paul: No, I do. I do. I have to say it.
Paul: John..tell me what you want me to do. You want me take you out of here?Just let you run away? See how far you could get?
John: Why would you do such a foolish thing?
Paul: On the day of my judgement... When I stand before God... and He asks me why did I ..killed one of His true.... miracles...What am I going to say? That it was my job? It's my job.
John: You tell God the Father, it was a kindness you done. I know you're hurting and worrying. I can feel it on you. But you ought to quit it now. I want it to be over and done with. I do..
John: I'm tired , Boss.. Tired of being on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. I'm tired of never having me a buddy to be with...Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world...everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head...all the time. Can you understand?
Paul: Yes John...I think I can...

It's a moment where it just slapped me when John said 'tired of people being ugly to each other'.. Bitchiness, hatred, discrimination, and everything, all the so self-centred attitudes, blaming others, etc... I feel like I'm part of them..part of those people who are being ugly to each other.. Maybe if it was God... Maybe it's like pieces of glass in His head...all the time...We have no more contract with evil...why are we still 'working' in it? This is something I need to rehab myself with too...because on the day of my judgement, when I stand before God... [continue it with your own thoughts].

Girl Power! We Can Do it!!

I shall share to the highlights of my activities in these past 2 days.



First of all: due to the storm, I think our cracked traditional roof couldn't handle the pressure very well, so there was leakage thru the top ceiling of our side-entrance. So 2 days ago, we (all three macho women: my mum, my cousin, myself) climbed up to the rooftop and fixed stuffs. Gee, men would be handy! But, we made it by ourselves - fixing the roof! Well-done *tap on the backs*! We could see pretty much the views surrounding our neighbourhood, and thankgoodnessssss we don't live across a busy street, otherwise, so embarassing laa..Coz we wore our pj's and God knows what kind of difficulties and weird positions we had to pose (I guess regular pilates might have helped..)

Secondly, last night we removed several furnitures around. That's including removing all the Cds', books, rubbish, etc.. And the biggest of the biggest was removing our huge and heavy TV cabinets. We had to move it outside for the brand-new credenza to come in... (I can't wait for it!So excited!!).



What I've learnt from these:

Here in Perth, is so different to Indo where you have all the helpers you need.. e.i. maids, drivers, etc. Places like Perth is where everything is D.I.Y, unless the zeros in your bank account is no more accountable :p. We wished we had some helpers from the Adam's clan, but since there was none, we can't really be dependent creatures. I shall add, women really aren't only about cooking, sewing, washing, and all works that don't need physical strength and logic-strategic thinking. No men in the house? No worry! We (girls) can do it!!

When you do it for others...

Life..
is like a drawing book, with plain white papers.
Colours are the emotions accumulated from experiences.
And you are the artist.


Okay, so my mother decided to surprise us (me and my sis and my cuzzy) by visiting us here in Perth, arriving last Thursday... The house was a mess, everything was in chaos, and we were so not prepared...for house raid!!
My 'exclusive' bathroom was okay (since I prefer to have my own bathroom), kitchen was a mess, laundry and study room..mm okay, let's skip this boring part..

Although I can't concentrate for most of the time ...but I actually truly treasure the time being. When she's here, I feel bad if I just leave her alone, which made me set aside some uni stuffs, church stuffs, social stuffs, and prioritize her the most, then Design. Ofcourse I know my own time-management, and I've learnt thru these years what to do, what to say, what to prioritize, etc. I do complain, I still do, but aren't girls complicated humanbeings? Mother-Daughter Love and bond live beneath all arguments and complaints.

So helping her in house chores, in buying new furnitures, new layout for the house, taking her to her favourite dining places, ride the car @ riverside = remedies for aching soul. Surprisingly, it feels good. When you know you're giving services that come from your heart to people who need them, or at least to someone... you feel rich. It is like what you saw is what you reap. You feel like your life is worth something.. That life itself is not about you and own ego.

When you do it for others without expecting anything in return..and focus on that person's happiness...I'd say you just finished a page with beautiful strokes of colours.

Comprehending F.A.T

Weight Weight and Weight!!!Isn't that the issue on what every Eve's tribes (I shall specify it: Azn girls) complaining about - FAT!!!

From FAT..they sorta softened it into CHUBBY..so much for saving some faces...and it kind of frustrates me how they have super duper small sizes...the skinnier you are, the more normal you are (not till anorexic point of course)... So many girls complaining how fat they are ( in return for appraisal and comfort 'no darl, you're not!')...

It's true that no Azn girls wants to be called 'fat' or 'you're so chubby'...that's considered an insult (thanks to the media and various culture for this mind-set). They say, they want to loose some weight and be 'slim' as in 'thin' to gain confidence...(thanks again to Media & Friends)...Isn't this world so cruel? How many girls have lost their good self-esteem for this matter? How many friendships are broken simply because one just couldn't understand the struggle the other-one has been dealing with? BE SENSITIVE! It's not about you, you, and you, but it's about us..Let's put ourselves in each other's shoes and FEEL it for goodness sake!!

Some light advice:

I myself have been struggling with weight issue until this minute.. and I really know how it feels to be called 'fat'..Although yes it's true I might be an overweight person, but it's not right to say something that can be destructive to someone's self-esteem if you aren't prepared to be destructed in return. Words, Actions, and Consequences, people.

So if you're telling me 'Hey, you're so chubby!' ..okay, great, thanks for your view, but it's up to me to either eat it, shoot it back, or throw it in the bin. The funny thing is.. if someone tell me I'm fat, I would smile and made jokes out of it.. The next time I see that person and tell him/her that they're fat, they would tell me "Like you're not!"...wow...such a cruel world. Read this one... If you make sarcastical jokes on someone else's appearance, then you have to be prepared and allow that person to make sarcastical jokes on yours as well... It's a fair go. In this case then everyone's happy : D. All good and acceptable (in my case).

And for those of you who are being discriminated for being chubby/fat, tell them that 'Yes I am FAT' because FAT for us means: Fabulous, Attractive, and Tough.

Oh..and..learn from Po :)

Through it all - god. thesis. love. chip.

Isaiah 43 says: ² When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
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I have to say that the past few months of this year haven't been the greatest months of my life. Most of the burden I'd have to say coming from my Thesis study, personal-relationships issues, and the End of Days. I have been struggling trying to grasp the essence of what I'm trying to accomplish in life.

For Thesis, the topic I chose isn't a popular one and has been sceptically accepted by Western society (and even Eastern society as well to certain extent)..and that is Feng Shui. I know how this is contradictory to Christian belief, but as I dig and dig down more towards the subject, Feng Shui elements that I'm looking at is the 'Art of Placement', it's the art and logic behind that captures me, and I'm not looking into the religion nor mystical issues of it. I've found FOCUS is very hard to do when I have loads of other things to think about, study about, and solve about.

Moreover, I've been struggling myself to use some wisdom to not feed 'arrogance','hatred', 'disgust' to certain people. I've tried putting them on an anorexic diet and feed 'love' and 'forgiveness' instead (poor love, it has been thin all these months). But it's not as easy as I predicted.

One more thing, about the judgment day... There's this surge of feelings that haunt me such as: what if i didn't make it? what if this that happen to my family? etc.. Especially with the news that the 'chip' is going to be launched on the 12th of May this year.. it creeps the h_ _ l out of me!

God knows how I've been struggling with my current life-stage, and I've been walking trying to against the current of the river. I'm as scared as a fragile thin glass which about to break. I wish time could go slower that I may have enough time to think more, do more, breath more...and yet now I found myself racing with time.

I just started reading the Bible again for the past few days after H2O mass on Saturday evening, where we are to commit about something for God (and for me, it was : reading BIble everydaY). And as days passed by, I began to , again, feel that He has always been here for me, it's just me who's been running away in circles, rectangles, whatever...But He has not even once abandon me. There's the string which links my feet to His feet that will never be broken down, and will only be strengthened as time goes by.

As I read that verse yesterday night, I was once again woken up. When I pass through the waters, He'll be with me... The current of water, in which I have to walk against shall not defeat me, it shall not tumble me down because He is with me. When I pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over me...I will not be drowned.. When I walk through the fire, I will not be burned... because He shelters me through it all.