Dear Blog,
Today marks as the beginning of winter this year :)...Hello winter!
Exams finally finished and done with..except that I still have classes till early next year...
I went on skiing last last weekend , it was heaps funn!!! There was also shabu2 time with CG buddies,..I suppose I'm on a balance -studying&socializing-
I'm currently listening to Bill Evans - Alice in Wonderland (Take 2) ...
Anywayz
Me going to Solana this evening with classmates, we're planning to watch a movie there..we'll see how good the cinema is (ppl say it's better than Sanlitun's Megabox)
Parents and bro are coming on late 25th.. Hmm what else to tell...
Where's snoww?? I want to see the first snowfall this year..darn it..looks like I'm gonna have to either miss it next year or experience it early next year...
Oh exams, I think I did pretty well with all of them..quite happy with myself.. Just unsure what next year gonna bring.. Heard Chinese Business is quite a challenge.
We're going to spend X'Mas Eve @ a friend's house and everyone ought to bring a 40-50yuan pressie and we're gonna swap pressie.. Hmmm..what should I buy?! Might find something interesting @ Solana tonight (hopefully!) Ouh..and there's gonna be turkey and other delicious food involved :)
I'm so sleepy.. I'm in no mood of doing anything.. Feeling like just lazying around.. sigh*
Oh and two of my friends...'friends' maybe.. went for good this afternoon. It's been a year they'd been here in Beijing.. They're the first two people in Beijing who introduced me to a lot of places..thanks to them :) .. I forgot to say thanks when coincidentally saw them this arvo.. Anyway, one of them is a guy with loads of friends-with-politics..me no likey hanging out with him too much... But..still.. thanks to him I got to know loads of Beijing's good places.
Do I miss them? Not really.. But if my CG buddies go back home for good..I think I'm so gonna miss them.. Umm..okay, time to be off from blog~
Aites Blog...ta ta
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
A Lucky Day on the 8th of December :)
Dear Blog,
an article in the chinadaily.com once said to consider it as your lucky day if you could see clear sky, fog/pollution uncovered buildings in Beijing (esp during winter). And guess what, today is the day where it's clear sky all the way and I could see clearly Beijing's buildings far and near..So I guess it's my lucky day :)
I'm all settled now in the new apartment...I'm quite happy and satisfied with the apt's condition .. it's quite far from crowded streets, it's more peaceful and quiet here...although one might not prefer to walk alone at night ..but most of the time I go by taxi anyway at night time.
We bought some stuffs from IKEA last week that included fabric sheets, small coffee tables, bed sheets, even the cool STORM light! And I know why my sis' room is cold..it's coz she put down her balcony's curtain..the curtain was supposed to trap the coldness of the outside air..
And one more thing I learned today.. was that Beijing is on the northern hemisphere and I all these time put my southern hemisphere theory into practice..DOH! The sun doesn't rotate from East-North-West but from East-South-West!!! So that means South facing rooms definitely get the most sunlight, which means: more expensive. My room faces south, which is great! but maybe not so great during summer..:P
Oops..gotta get the clothes from the washing machine! pause*
Done..
It's 10:02..in about 20min I gotta wake-up call a friend pretty soon...
I'm currently watching Vampire Diaries 2.. Ian Somerhalder is really Hot!..but there's a nu guy ..his screen name is Mason ..Something..he's a mix between Leonardo DiCaprio and Gerard Butler..He's really good looking.. a nice eye-candy xD.
Anyway, I'll just continue watching..I like it much better than Twilight seriously..
Oh and my current weight today right in the morning after I woke up: 51.5kg (Please God, I want 48 badly..Hopefully I could make it before going back to Indo)
Gnite Blog!
an article in the chinadaily.com once said to consider it as your lucky day if you could see clear sky, fog/pollution uncovered buildings in Beijing (esp during winter). And guess what, today is the day where it's clear sky all the way and I could see clearly Beijing's buildings far and near..So I guess it's my lucky day :)
I'm all settled now in the new apartment...I'm quite happy and satisfied with the apt's condition .. it's quite far from crowded streets, it's more peaceful and quiet here...although one might not prefer to walk alone at night ..but most of the time I go by taxi anyway at night time.
We bought some stuffs from IKEA last week that included fabric sheets, small coffee tables, bed sheets, even the cool STORM light! And I know why my sis' room is cold..it's coz she put down her balcony's curtain..the curtain was supposed to trap the coldness of the outside air..
And one more thing I learned today.. was that Beijing is on the northern hemisphere and I all these time put my southern hemisphere theory into practice..DOH! The sun doesn't rotate from East-North-West but from East-South-West!!! So that means South facing rooms definitely get the most sunlight, which means: more expensive. My room faces south, which is great! but maybe not so great during summer..:P
Oops..gotta get the clothes from the washing machine! pause*
Done..
It's 10:02..in about 20min I gotta wake-up call a friend pretty soon...
I'm currently watching Vampire Diaries 2.. Ian Somerhalder is really Hot!..but there's a nu guy ..his screen name is Mason ..Something..he's a mix between Leonardo DiCaprio and Gerard Butler..He's really good looking.. a nice eye-candy xD.
Anyway, I'll just continue watching..I like it much better than Twilight seriously..
Oh and my current weight today right in the morning after I woke up: 51.5kg (Please God, I want 48 badly..Hopefully I could make it before going back to Indo)
Gnite Blog!
Sunday, November 28, 2010
3402 房间，0 号楼，晚安 ：）
What happened in November... surely a lot has happened..a lot has changed from places to perspectives...
Changes List:
- Future plan : Business Chinese for a semester, possible export-import opportunity from here.
- Friends: I now don't know who I can really call "friends"... one of my best-friend here has been walking out of the line... I've been telling that person to stay in control of his/herself but he/she chose not listen. I know how hard it could be to against feelings. But it's not about her/him solely, it's about others relationship! I never expected my own close buddy, knowing it's so wrong, knowing the guy/girl is a bastard/bitch who doesn't know what he/she want, creeping in someone else's relationship. Now I don't wanna have any business in relation to his/her issue. It's weird how 'friends' stab each other on the back..hmmm...
- Some Mysterious Dude: ..hmmm.. I dreamt twice about this guy... One when I was still back in Jakarta and once here in Beijing... I find it mysteriously intriguing, those dreams came true!
- Family: Hope. Faith. Love.
- Living Habitat: Tomorrow I'm gonna move to an apartment nearby (well..it takes 15min walk to and from univ.) It's near北门 and it's called 北桃园. Such a coincidence (no..I don't actually believe in coincidence) I'm living @ the same building unit with my Kazakhstan classmate :P. Hmmm.. I might be able to loose weight then.. (since it requires daily cardio 20min to Qiusao Building then 2min up to level 5 *by stairs* where my classroom is, then usual out-for-lunch ..another short-cardio, then back to class up to level 5, then by end of day, walk 20min to my new apartment.)
There's a story behind why we chose this apt..
Well at first we liked an apartment @ 吉利家园 but then it's a bit expensive but has a lovely interior and spacious living room.. We (till now) still like it very much.. But take note: 吉利家园 is a bit further east ..so walking casually might take 25-30min ?? But heaps of Indo lives there. We surveyed a number of apartments but none suit the heart more than that one @ 吉利家园... So when we decided we're gonna take that one..sadly, it's just been rented the day before we decided. We're a day too late :( . But it's okay it's okay, nothing is coincidence. Maybe that apt not meant to be for us anyway :P. So we surveyed this small apt @ 北桃园.. the furnitures are seriously classic-chinese-indoish..we wondered why and it turned out that the fandong spent 21 years in Jakarta so he could speak a little indo :D ..Chen Shushu and Wang Ayi are really niceee to us..although we deal with their daughter..Zhang ayi..Chen Shushu and Wang Ayi said never hesitate to contact them for any issues :). Good to know that we have a lovely fandong couple.
There wont be any internet for the next 3 days (my prediction)...tmorrow supposed to be registration day then the next day or the day after should be installation day...My sis texted Adi (our indo agent) but no reply just yet..hmmm
2morrow we're gonna check out before 12 noon ... I kinda miss this dorm tho.. At first, I really didn't like it but now I'm already used to it. I guess it'll be the same in the new apt...I'll love it gradually... I kinda like it..it's alright I guess..it is better than dorm-lifestyle!
Okay blog.. I suppose I should write this one..this important one issue..
I've been dreaming twice about this mysterious dude and they're in the process of coming true! I just live it naturally but it's going there..exactly like the prophecy (mmm..weird prophecy). There's a lot of assumption and maybes tho ..hmm~ complicated stuffs.
Zzzz..I think I'm kind of an autis.. Blog is my best friend..it's like talking to wall..But that's cool with me ;P
Oops..12am! Got morning class tomorrow..busy busy! And they're gonna give us the exam's results back..eeekkzzz (>___<) Hope I did alright!
Gnite Blog.this is my last night here in dorm 3402, 0 号楼...and I shall write again when I'm all settled in the new apartment :)
Changes List:
- Future plan : Business Chinese for a semester, possible export-import opportunity from here.
- Friends: I now don't know who I can really call "friends"... one of my best-friend here has been walking out of the line... I've been telling that person to stay in control of his/herself but he/she chose not listen. I know how hard it could be to against feelings. But it's not about her/him solely, it's about others relationship! I never expected my own close buddy, knowing it's so wrong, knowing the guy/girl is a bastard/bitch who doesn't know what he/she want, creeping in someone else's relationship. Now I don't wanna have any business in relation to his/her issue. It's weird how 'friends' stab each other on the back..hmmm...
- Some Mysterious Dude: ..hmmm.. I dreamt twice about this guy... One when I was still back in Jakarta and once here in Beijing... I find it mysteriously intriguing, those dreams came true!
- Family: Hope. Faith. Love.
- Living Habitat: Tomorrow I'm gonna move to an apartment nearby (well..it takes 15min walk to and from univ.) It's near北门 and it's called 北桃园. Such a coincidence (no..I don't actually believe in coincidence) I'm living @ the same building unit with my Kazakhstan classmate :P. Hmmm.. I might be able to loose weight then.. (since it requires daily cardio 20min to Qiusao Building then 2min up to level 5 *by stairs* where my classroom is, then usual out-for-lunch ..another short-cardio, then back to class up to level 5, then by end of day, walk 20min to my new apartment.)
There's a story behind why we chose this apt..
Well at first we liked an apartment @ 吉利家园 but then it's a bit expensive but has a lovely interior and spacious living room.. We (till now) still like it very much.. But take note: 吉利家园 is a bit further east ..so walking casually might take 25-30min ?? But heaps of Indo lives there. We surveyed a number of apartments but none suit the heart more than that one @ 吉利家园... So when we decided we're gonna take that one..sadly, it's just been rented the day before we decided. We're a day too late :( . But it's okay it's okay, nothing is coincidence. Maybe that apt not meant to be for us anyway :P. So we surveyed this small apt @ 北桃园.. the furnitures are seriously classic-chinese-indoish..we wondered why and it turned out that the fandong spent 21 years in Jakarta so he could speak a little indo :D ..Chen Shushu and Wang Ayi are really niceee to us..although we deal with their daughter..Zhang ayi..Chen Shushu and Wang Ayi said never hesitate to contact them for any issues :). Good to know that we have a lovely fandong couple.
There wont be any internet for the next 3 days (my prediction)...tmorrow supposed to be registration day then the next day or the day after should be installation day...My sis texted Adi (our indo agent) but no reply just yet..hmmm
2morrow we're gonna check out before 12 noon ... I kinda miss this dorm tho.. At first, I really didn't like it but now I'm already used to it. I guess it'll be the same in the new apt...I'll love it gradually... I kinda like it..it's alright I guess..it is better than dorm-lifestyle!
Okay blog.. I suppose I should write this one..this important one issue..
I've been dreaming twice about this mysterious dude and they're in the process of coming true! I just live it naturally but it's going there..exactly like the prophecy (mmm..weird prophecy). There's a lot of assumption and maybes tho ..hmm~ complicated stuffs.
Zzzz..I think I'm kind of an autis.. Blog is my best friend..it's like talking to wall..But that's cool with me ;P
Oops..12am! Got morning class tomorrow..busy busy! And they're gonna give us the exam's results back..eeekkzzz (>___<) Hope I did alright!
Gnite Blog.this is my last night here in dorm 3402, 0 号楼...and I shall write again when I'm all settled in the new apartment :)
Thursday, November 18, 2010
After Cell
Hello again Blog, long time no see...
I spent my last weekend @ Hongkong..the trip wasn't as fun as I expected.. there's too much politics involved..I hated it :( ...I missed Beijing so much. But of course I tried to enjoy myself while in Hongkong.
It was so good to be back here in Beijing. Wo yue lai yue xihuan Beijing :) .
Today I met new friends @ a new friend's apartment. At first it was a bit awkward for me but then I found a jazz buddy while walking back to sushe..Yay!
I spent my last weekend @ Hongkong..the trip wasn't as fun as I expected.. there's too much politics involved..I hated it :( ...I missed Beijing so much. But of course I tried to enjoy myself while in Hongkong.
It was so good to be back here in Beijing. Wo yue lai yue xihuan Beijing :) .
Today I met new friends @ a new friend's apartment. At first it was a bit awkward for me but then I found a jazz buddy while walking back to sushe..Yay!
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Dear God
Dear God,
Thank you for such opportunity that I am now in Beijing with my sister learning Chinese.
Thank you for the environment You've placed us here.
Thank you for the friends and teachers You've introduced us.
Thank you for Your endless and tireless guidance.
After a long thought, I've decided to continue studying Chinese for another semester.
Not taking MBA Degree, but I wish to take Business Chinese Language Training Class.
But I'm not sure whether this is the right or wrong decision.
The biggest struggle I've been experiencing is still running parallel with me.
Give her strength, Lord
Give her Your wisest wisest advice
Give her Your warmth and love
Give her security and protection
She needs them all...
Give him forgiveness, Lord
Give him a Father Heart
Give him wisdom to understand what really matters in this world
Give him ears that block foolish advice
Give him tongue that stop rubbish words from coming out
Give him a brand new love for her
He needs them all...
God...Although by distance I'm far apart from them...but You're always close. You're here, there, and everywhere.
Touch them Lord...
Take over them Lord...
Heal their broken hearts...
"Let Your mercy flow within us, as we stand before the Lamb...Your presence changes the atmosphere" -Atmosphere
Monday, November 1, 2010
1st of November
A bit of update from October's last few days:
I'm really happy for my mid-exams results, average of HDs..Thank you God :)
My feet is hurting from Saturday's hiking to Xiang Shan.. it was such an adventurous experience.. Went there with 3 others from late morning till evening..That Saturday yes, was a crazy Saturday! I wore wrong attire yet still managed to step on the peak of Xiang Shan.. Good on you , Agnes! *Tap myself on the back* We then went for dinner at Wudaokou..I was so hungryyyy! Was such a tiring Saturday but definitely an adventurous one ;)
Friday night with friends went for dimsum at Jin Ding Xian, Yonghegong. We ordered a lot and I loved the stuffed egg-yolk bun..nyummy (^____^)
Enough of October, let's move on to November..
Ahhh..Hello November :)
Somehow I have a feeling I'm going to like this month :)
Let's see..what's my situation right now..Hmm
I'm listening to Disney Forever Collection - current song: A Spoonfull of Sugar - Mary Poppins
I just ate 红烧牛肉面like probably 15 to 30minutes ago.
I'm currently blogging, tabs full of facebook, BBC Weather|Beijing, Hotmail, and MSN Today
Right beside my start button there's Windows Live Messenger, MSN Today, Blogger, Skype, Adobe Photoshop, WMPlayer, and Disney Folder.
It is 9.09pm Beijing time.
My craving for Disney movies and songs grew as fast as I opened my Disney folder looking for nice songs to be put into my November Playlist..
How I love Disney Classics...I grew up with them.. Less or more they've influenced me in every possible way. I wish I could stay forever young...;)
Anyway, my legs still hurts..I'd applied Counterpain but still hurting :(
Laundry is getting piled up! Shucks..Wednesday shall be the latest day to do laundry..and my dorm's floor is getting dirty..I just can feel it! 我应该大嫂打扫房间里！
Alright..since I have a good mood this evening, I'm going to make a poem for November ;)
Dear November,
Autumn is about to blend into winter
But you will be better than October
Because You will paint beautiful colours I shall always remember
You shall be the month where I'll become wiser
Happier, Smarter, and ofcourse, slimmer!
You will bring happiness to my family through togetherness
You will bring joy and fun and freshness
You will make my heart smile from unpredictable moments
xoxo for November
I'm really happy for my mid-exams results, average of HDs..Thank you God :)
My feet is hurting from Saturday's hiking to Xiang Shan.. it was such an adventurous experience.. Went there with 3 others from late morning till evening..That Saturday yes, was a crazy Saturday! I wore wrong attire yet still managed to step on the peak of Xiang Shan.. Good on you , Agnes! *Tap myself on the back* We then went for dinner at Wudaokou..I was so hungryyyy! Was such a tiring Saturday but definitely an adventurous one ;)
Friday night with friends went for dimsum at Jin Ding Xian, Yonghegong. We ordered a lot and I loved the stuffed egg-yolk bun..nyummy (^____^)
Enough of October, let's move on to November..
Ahhh..Hello November :)
Somehow I have a feeling I'm going to like this month :)
Let's see..what's my situation right now..Hmm
I'm listening to Disney Forever Collection - current song: A Spoonfull of Sugar - Mary Poppins
I just ate 红烧牛肉面like probably 15 to 30minutes ago.
I'm currently blogging, tabs full of facebook, BBC Weather|Beijing, Hotmail, and MSN Today
Right beside my start button there's Windows Live Messenger, MSN Today, Blogger, Skype, Adobe Photoshop, WMPlayer, and Disney Folder.
It is 9.09pm Beijing time.
My craving for Disney movies and songs grew as fast as I opened my Disney folder looking for nice songs to be put into my November Playlist..
How I love Disney Classics...I grew up with them.. Less or more they've influenced me in every possible way. I wish I could stay forever young...;)
Anyway, my legs still hurts..I'd applied Counterpain but still hurting :(
Laundry is getting piled up! Shucks..Wednesday shall be the latest day to do laundry..and my dorm's floor is getting dirty..I just can feel it! 我应该大嫂打扫房间里！
Alright..since I have a good mood this evening, I'm going to make a poem for November ;)
Dear November,
Autumn is about to blend into winterBut you will be better than October
Because You will paint beautiful colours I shall always remember
You shall be the month where I'll become wiser
Happier, Smarter, and ofcourse, slimmer!
You will bring happiness to my family through togetherness
You will bring joy and fun and freshness
You will make my heart smile from unpredictable moments
xoxo for November
Monday, October 25, 2010
Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay...!
Yay Yay Yay Yay。。。。！
考试 :
我估计今天的考试不太难，也不太简单。。。我觉得还可以。。。
We started off with Grammar Exam from 8.10am till 9.55am then Listening Exam from 10.10 till finito (11.55)
Damn Listening exam...surely the speakers spoke like normal Beijingers speak here.. so fast! I'm not really used to the speed.. but it was so inspiring listening to the girl's voice..I want to have that kind of Beijing accent! It sounds soo coooollll..!!!
天气:
However, today's weather is not so nice although the sun was there up up away and shining brightly. The wind force was 9mph.. Brrr.. cold wind blowing against my face and body, not a very nice feeling. What more? I was about to turn on the heater when my sister said our electricity voucher has reached its limit. we only have now, a deposit of 36快.. SO SAD!!! That means, tomorrow after exam, I definitely have to deposit more money. I can't live without heater...tomorrow is said to be 3 to 8 degree Celcius..很冷！！！
I can't believe that it's still autumn here in Beijing... If it was Perth, such weather is considered as winter!
心情:
今天我的心情很好是应为。。。
My dad gave me a green light to do an IMBA Degree here in Beijing..I'm so excited! Now I just have to find out how and what sort of documents needed to apply. Sooo happy! I just think that MBA for me is so necessary.
This afternoon I asked God ... that if it's not meant to be then dad wouldn't give me a green light.. But on the phone, dad gave me one.. So, I really do think it's Your will :) ..Now I can see a glimpse of light..At least I don't feel like I'm in the middle of nowhere anymore :D
Although today's weather isn't so favorable, and exams were quite alright, but the green light to do a Master Degree has definitely made my day.
Thank you God :D
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
星期 二
你好
Yesterday night after blogging I chit chatted with my IA Sisterhood buddies. I soooo miss them badly :'| . We had such a good time! Surprisingly three of us got drunk during weekend..lol..one got drunk in Brunei, one in Perth, and one in Beijing.. I'm loving such bond! After chatting with them, I went to sleep smiling ..it was such a heart warming midnight chat :).
我觉得今天过了很慢。。 。
My schedule for today was:
8am 我迟到了！我 8点10分 才到了教师。。。Oops
5pm 下课。
5-7点 复习生词。
7-7点半 准备准备
8 点 出去三里屯根朋友们见面。
8 点半 在Let's Burger 吃了晚餐。 我点Salmon Salad .. around 58元。跟朋友们一起走走。。。在街上逛逛。。。
10.30ish went home and practice again for 2morrow's 听写。
The highlight of today was:
TAXI: 2nd compliment from a taxi driver saying we're beautiful girls..awwwww
WEATHER : COLD..but thank goodness it wasn't raining ..pheww..
AT CLASS: 没想到, 今天的口语课很有意思。I actually quite enjoyed the class and got a lot out of it.
Eeks.. Thursday is 口语的考试day.. Not looking forward for it..(>.<)
张老师
curhat about our 班的同学 attitude and behavior towards learning Mandarin.. She wondered why they all fell asleep. 谁有问题？老师还是学生？ Seriously I reckon' it's not the teachers' fault. Me too have no idea why they all asleep in class.. Hmm, don't know..but, I kind of know how it feels to be up there in front of the class giving presentation and none seem to care. Back in Aussie, we all listened and at least acted like we're interested when lecturers/tutors are giving presentations...Appreciation is well-honored. So I told her it's not about her but it's the students. 对汉语，他们可能没有兴趣. I ? I already know how important it is to learn the language..perhaps they're still so young and it wasn't their choice learning the language. OH well, she told me how she feels sad and having bad mood every time she teaches us because most of us are being quite rude (by sleeping in class). .. Poor Zhang Laoshi.. She trully is a great teacher :).
爱莲的了感冒。。哎呀。。。
我们从昨天晚上开了空调。I set it to 30deg Celcius.. coz it was really cold yesterday.. However the kongtiao smelled like burnt metal as I previously mentioned.. We didn't switch it off because it's just too niceeee..I wonder how much it ate the electricity voucher :P
Anyway it's 12:15AM right now.. eeekz.. I shall not be late 2morrow!! Already got a warning!!
Ouh..and today, another person from UIBE 讲解about taking MBA in UIBE.. only for a year! I'm deeply attracted!! Droooollllsssss..that MBA title is really tempting! Hihihihi..
Anyway, good night blog..2morrow have to wake up early..Might be another interesting day 2morrow.. 3-5pm is Wushu Show.. can't wait!
xoxo,
杰花
Yesterday night after blogging I chit chatted with my IA Sisterhood buddies. I soooo miss them badly :'| . We had such a good time! Surprisingly three of us got drunk during weekend..lol..one got drunk in Brunei, one in Perth, and one in Beijing.. I'm loving such bond! After chatting with them, I went to sleep smiling ..it was such a heart warming midnight chat :).
我觉得今天过了很慢。。 。
My schedule for today was:
8am 我迟到了！我 8点10分 才到了教师。。。Oops
5pm 下课。
5-7点 复习生词。
7-7点半 准备准备
8 点 出去三里屯根朋友们见面。
8 点半 在Let's Burger 吃了晚餐。 我点Salmon Salad .. around 58元。跟朋友们一起走走。。。在街上逛逛。。。
10.30ish went home and practice again for 2morrow's 听写。
The highlight of today was:
TAXI: 2nd compliment from a taxi driver saying we're beautiful girls..awwwww
WEATHER : COLD..but thank goodness it wasn't raining ..pheww..
AT CLASS: 没想到, 今天的口语课很有意思。I actually quite enjoyed the class and got a lot out of it.
Eeks.. Thursday is 口语的考试day.. Not looking forward for it..(>.<)
张老师
curhat about our 班的同学 attitude and behavior towards learning Mandarin.. She wondered why they all fell asleep. 谁有问题？老师还是学生？ Seriously I reckon' it's not the teachers' fault. Me too have no idea why they all asleep in class.. Hmm, don't know..but, I kind of know how it feels to be up there in front of the class giving presentation and none seem to care. Back in Aussie, we all listened and at least acted like we're interested when lecturers/tutors are giving presentations...Appreciation is well-honored. So I told her it's not about her but it's the students. 对汉语，他们可能没有兴趣. I ? I already know how important it is to learn the language..perhaps they're still so young and it wasn't their choice learning the language. OH well, she told me how she feels sad and having bad mood every time she teaches us because most of us are being quite rude (by sleeping in class). .. Poor Zhang Laoshi.. She trully is a great teacher :).
爱莲的了感冒。。哎呀。。。
我们从昨天晚上开了空调。I set it to 30deg Celcius.. coz it was really cold yesterday.. However the kongtiao smelled like burnt metal as I previously mentioned.. We didn't switch it off because it's just too niceeee..I wonder how much it ate the electricity voucher :P
Anyway it's 12:15AM right now.. eeekz.. I shall not be late 2morrow!! Already got a warning!!
Ouh..and today, another person from UIBE 讲解about taking MBA in UIBE.. only for a year! I'm deeply attracted!! Droooollllsssss..that MBA title is really tempting! Hihihihi..
Anyway, good night blog..2morrow have to wake up early..Might be another interesting day 2morrow.. 3-5pm is Wushu Show.. can't wait!
xoxo,
杰花
Monday, October 18, 2010
Vodka Weekend & Foggy Monday
Dear Blog,
I had an interesting weekend.. What happened? Well.. after Ray's birthday dinner, my sis and I decided to join our friends going to Vics. They said it's called the Indo Night and it was prolly like once every year. The music was real loud but nice songs!I thought I'd stay sober, it's not prolly gonna be interesting anyway. A friend booked two sofas-cubicles for us. All i could remember was that I was so bored and quite tired and sleepy.. Then I drank the vodka ..and oops.. my mind and my body disconnected! Yep, felt like I gained 10kg..the body surely felt really heavy. We stayed there till 2am and off me, sis, and a friend to our dorm. That was my first ever experience of getting drunk. My head spun round and round and I couldn't walk straight but I was very much aware of my mind..My body just didn't agree with what the brain was commanding. I'm pretty sure my sis would always remember such experience of having to deal with me that time :P..
But I remembered crying before off to dreamland. I was quite sentimental.. moreover, mother text-ed me saying stuffs that really stirred my emotion to the boiling point. And then on Sunday morning, I cried again by 8am..Gosh! it was such a mellow Sunday morning... Another breakdown here in Beijing. I was totally clueless as to what I am going to do, where is my life leading to?
I also remembered yesterday talking to dad on the phone. We had this talk about business and importing goods opportunity. Dad seemed to be very proud of us, he thought we've grown up now..no more spoil brat, now we're talking business. Somehow, no matter how painful our past was, hearing him and feeling him being proud of us..that just officially made my Sunday a Sunny Sunday..no more gloomy aura.
Then we went to have dinner in a friend's dorm..the food came 1.5 hour after we ordered..sucks..but the food still tasted yummy. Then 2 friends came along and join us in our small gathering... Then by 12 we surprised another friend. It's his birthday! Hip Hip Hooraaay! I was already tired but when I was planning to leave the place, a second group with a bunch of guys and girls came and gave him a surprise visit..and it all went along till around 2am. OH one funny thing was that the small cake that we bought + the aromatherapy candle we put aside was exactly the same as the ones the second group bought! What a coincidence!
Then 2 of my girlfriends didn't feel like going back to their dorm so they decided to stay over. And I forgot we had 听写 on chapter 33 today. 所以我和妹妹赶学习 到2 点半.
What a weekend!
I woke up this Monday morning feeling really really really SLEEPY. The weather sucks! It's very coooolllddd...around 8-12 度 but somehow it already felt like 4度!! grrrr. And my body itched all over..don't know why..i'm sensing that the winter rash has caught me! UGH! LOTION LOTION LOTION...I shall massage my skin with plentiful body lotion.
Just had ramen for dinner at Isshin, just the four of us - people from 0 号楼 - ..eating warm soupy food during cold weather is the best option!
听说明天的天气根今天的差不多..but hopefully it won't rain :( ..me no like rain :( . I don't want to get sick.
I'd turned on the heater...it smelled like burnt metal..but apparently it's just because it wasn't being used for quite some time, so it takes time to adjust.
Ohh Beijing, please be nice to me..coz I'm planning to stay here for another semester.. BE NICE.okay? ;P
I had an interesting weekend.. What happened? Well.. after Ray's birthday dinner, my sis and I decided to join our friends going to Vics. They said it's called the Indo Night and it was prolly like once every year. The music was real loud but nice songs!I thought I'd stay sober, it's not prolly gonna be interesting anyway. A friend booked two sofas-cubicles for us. All i could remember was that I was so bored and quite tired and sleepy.. Then I drank the vodka ..and oops.. my mind and my body disconnected! Yep, felt like I gained 10kg..the body surely felt really heavy. We stayed there till 2am and off me, sis, and a friend to our dorm. That was my first ever experience of getting drunk. My head spun round and round and I couldn't walk straight but I was very much aware of my mind..My body just didn't agree with what the brain was commanding. I'm pretty sure my sis would always remember such experience of having to deal with me that time :P..
But I remembered crying before off to dreamland. I was quite sentimental.. moreover, mother text-ed me saying stuffs that really stirred my emotion to the boiling point. And then on Sunday morning, I cried again by 8am..Gosh! it was such a mellow Sunday morning... Another breakdown here in Beijing. I was totally clueless as to what I am going to do, where is my life leading to?
I also remembered yesterday talking to dad on the phone. We had this talk about business and importing goods opportunity. Dad seemed to be very proud of us, he thought we've grown up now..no more spoil brat, now we're talking business. Somehow, no matter how painful our past was, hearing him and feeling him being proud of us..that just officially made my Sunday a Sunny Sunday..no more gloomy aura.
Then we went to have dinner in a friend's dorm..the food came 1.5 hour after we ordered..sucks..but the food still tasted yummy. Then 2 friends came along and join us in our small gathering... Then by 12 we surprised another friend. It's his birthday! Hip Hip Hooraaay! I was already tired but when I was planning to leave the place, a second group with a bunch of guys and girls came and gave him a surprise visit..and it all went along till around 2am. OH one funny thing was that the small cake that we bought + the aromatherapy candle we put aside was exactly the same as the ones the second group bought! What a coincidence!
Then 2 of my girlfriends didn't feel like going back to their dorm so they decided to stay over. And I forgot we had 听写 on chapter 33 today. 所以我和妹妹赶学习 到2 点半.
What a weekend!
I woke up this Monday morning feeling really really really SLEEPY. The weather sucks! It's very coooolllddd...around 8-12 度 but somehow it already felt like 4度!! grrrr. And my body itched all over..don't know why..i'm sensing that the winter rash has caught me! UGH! LOTION LOTION LOTION...I shall massage my skin with plentiful body lotion.
Just had ramen for dinner at Isshin, just the four of us - people from 0 号楼 - ..eating warm soupy food during cold weather is the best option!
听说明天的天气根今天的差不多..but hopefully it won't rain :( ..me no like rain :( . I don't want to get sick.
I'd turned on the heater...it smelled like burnt metal..but apparently it's just because it wasn't being used for quite some time, so it takes time to adjust.
Ohh Beijing, please be nice to me..coz I'm planning to stay here for another semester.. BE NICE.okay? ;P
Friday, October 15, 2010
Full on Friday
Dear Blog
My schedule today:
8.30- 2.30ish went out on excursion to Hutong area here in Beijing. I loved it..was so tiring but was worth the experience. :)
I especially love those traditional Chinese houses..love the heritage listed buildings.. My point is: I love old Beijing city!
2.30-4.30ish compiling postcards and stick them onto our dorm's glass divider between the bedroom and the living room. Now our dorm looks more alive and colourful ;).
My plan was to to go Solana and get some pressies for 2 of our friends.. Ouh and by this time we went downstairs and exchange pillow's cover etc.
4.40-6.30ish Xiuxi time.. was so tired and sleepy.. Anyway, a friend called my sis and invited her to go to TGIF tonight for dinner. My sis had been craving for TGIF for ages eversince she saw TGIF here in Beijing. So we had to cancel our Solana plan.. Plus there was no news from a friend whom I invited to join to Solana anyway.. So get ready for TGIF!
7++ - ?? Searched taxis..nearly gave up..so many of them had no idea where TGIF is (it's in Beijing Guojie Da Sha).. SO finally after..maybe 30minutes plus we finally found a taxi driver who knew the place. Along the way the taxi driver and us 聊天聊天。。 他问我们“你们是韩国人 吗？“我们回答“不是。我们是印尼华侨。Then he said something and we replied "Dui bu qi, wo men ting bu dong!" and he giggled and talked to us more clearly. So along the way he mentioned about us two being 小棍娘， 太漂亮！哈哈哈。。。我们笑了。 我们说“谢谢。。哈哈哈”他也说“你们比中国人漂亮“That made us laugh.. He kept on saying 我们是美 nu er. That was my first time heard a taxi driver gave us complement. ;P
I had no idea what time we arrived in TGIF..but from TGIF we moved on to Marge's coffee place called Unconditional Love Coffee Shop. It's somewhere near Mei Shu Guan.. It's such a lovely place, I like it there..very arty ..and it reminds me a lot of 798. We're there till around 11.20ish pm.. Marge was pretty drunk.. she just broke up with his boyfriend.. Her boyfriend deserved to be called a POO! He ain't a gentleman!
Anyway..it's 12:55am..My plan is to sleep at 1am.. I'm really really sleepy...
Hmm.. that dude bbm-ing me again.. asking the very same question.."Why your reply took so long?" .. Goodness meeee! I've told him like hundred times I could only reply if there's wifi available within my wifi ntwork range. (-__-)..
I'm so sleepy..it's 12:56am now..
Tmorrow is going to be another fun and tiring day I think..
It's Ray's bday 2morrow and it's going to be a drinkie night.. Hmm.. I wonder what to wear 2morrow.. hmm hmmm
Anyway.it's 12:57am now..
My eyes are only half open..
Good night Blog..
xoxo,
me! (12:58)
My schedule today:
8.30- 2.30ish went out on excursion to Hutong area here in Beijing. I loved it..was so tiring but was worth the experience. :)
I especially love those traditional Chinese houses..love the heritage listed buildings.. My point is: I love old Beijing city!
2.30-4.30ish compiling postcards and stick them onto our dorm's glass divider between the bedroom and the living room. Now our dorm looks more alive and colourful ;).
My plan was to to go Solana and get some pressies for 2 of our friends.. Ouh and by this time we went downstairs and exchange pillow's cover etc.
4.40-6.30ish Xiuxi time.. was so tired and sleepy.. Anyway, a friend called my sis and invited her to go to TGIF tonight for dinner. My sis had been craving for TGIF for ages eversince she saw TGIF here in Beijing. So we had to cancel our Solana plan.. Plus there was no news from a friend whom I invited to join to Solana anyway.. So get ready for TGIF!
7++ - ?? Searched taxis..nearly gave up..so many of them had no idea where TGIF is (it's in Beijing Guojie Da Sha).. SO finally after..maybe 30minutes plus we finally found a taxi driver who knew the place. Along the way the taxi driver and us 聊天聊天。。 他问我们“你们是韩国人 吗？“我们回答“不是。我们是印尼华侨。Then he said something and we replied "Dui bu qi, wo men ting bu dong!" and he giggled and talked to us more clearly. So along the way he mentioned about us two being 小棍娘， 太漂亮！哈哈哈。。。我们笑了。 我们说“谢谢。。哈哈哈”他也说“你们比中国人漂亮“That made us laugh.. He kept on saying 我们是美 nu er. That was my first time heard a taxi driver gave us complement. ;P
I had no idea what time we arrived in TGIF..but from TGIF we moved on to Marge's coffee place called Unconditional Love Coffee Shop. It's somewhere near Mei Shu Guan.. It's such a lovely place, I like it there..very arty ..and it reminds me a lot of 798. We're there till around 11.20ish pm.. Marge was pretty drunk.. she just broke up with his boyfriend.. Her boyfriend deserved to be called a POO! He ain't a gentleman!
Anyway..it's 12:55am..My plan is to sleep at 1am.. I'm really really sleepy...
Hmm.. that dude bbm-ing me again.. asking the very same question.."Why your reply took so long?" .. Goodness meeee! I've told him like hundred times I could only reply if there's wifi available within my wifi ntwork range. (-__-)..
I'm so sleepy..it's 12:56am now..
Tmorrow is going to be another fun and tiring day I think..
It's Ray's bday 2morrow and it's going to be a drinkie night.. Hmm.. I wonder what to wear 2morrow.. hmm hmmm
Anyway.it's 12:57am now..
My eyes are only half open..
Good night Blog..
xoxo,
me! (12:58)
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
12.10.10
Hello Blog,
So 12.10.10 开始 when my sister woke me up to a friend's birthday surprise thingo. I was already fast asleep when at 12 she asked me to get ready. So anyway, went to his place with my pajamas, no make up, and sang him Happy Birthday while still gathering my mind at the same time. We stayed at his place till around 2.30am ..and 8点 上课！我很累也很昆！
During lunch break me and my sister went out to Ito Yokado and bought teapot, pan, and other necessity stuffs. 一边吃方便面一边看 Ip Man 1 movie from sis' harddrive. Time went real fast, we headed off to our next class and went to our last class which started at 6pm.
This class called the "Hanyu Jiao Class", it's a class where 我们跟中国朋友一起聊聊天. So I talked with this one Chinese guy whose majoring in Deutsch. Time went really fast, I enjoyed talking with him because he acted like half "hanyu tutor" and half "new Chinese friend". Anyway, after class, me, my sis, and our two other classmates decided to 一起去晚饭在西门的附近.
我们吃 korean bbq, 聊天到9.30pm! We just sat there chit chat with eachother and I supposed we enjoyed eachother's company. Although by age we're a bit far apart, but at least it seems like we're able to connect with eachother.
Right now I'm quite tired...it's 10.36pm and I'm listening to 'Dawn' by Dario Marianelli from Pride and Prejudice Soundtrack...it is so smooth, calm, and pleasing to the ear.
Oh.. by the way, grammar teacher told us to make a small composition about our life in Beijing.
I'll write it down here...;)
生活在北京
虽然我对汉语和北京没有兴趣,但是有很多人告诉我,"英语现在不是世界的第一与.现在各地涌汉语所以学汉语非常重要!"
所以3月前我决定来北京学习汉语,上月我从印尼来到了北京,我听不懂汉语,说得也不流利.有印尼朋友告诉我,很多中国人不会说英语.我觉得这是很糟糕!我想一想我应该怎么办.我觉得我必须认真学习汉语.所以除了复习和写作业,我也常常去饭馆用汉语点菜.去北京很有意思的地方逛逛, 拍照片,跟别人 练习练习我的口语.我觉得这样学汉语很轻松.最近我对汉语和北京发生了兴趣.
So 12.10.10 开始 when my sister woke me up to a friend's birthday surprise thingo. I was already fast asleep when at 12 she asked me to get ready. So anyway, went to his place with my pajamas, no make up, and sang him Happy Birthday while still gathering my mind at the same time. We stayed at his place till around 2.30am ..and 8点 上课！我很累也很昆！
During lunch break me and my sister went out to Ito Yokado and bought teapot, pan, and other necessity stuffs. 一边吃方便面一边看 Ip Man 1 movie from sis' harddrive. Time went real fast, we headed off to our next class and went to our last class which started at 6pm.
This class called the "Hanyu Jiao Class", it's a class where 我们跟中国朋友一起聊聊天. So I talked with this one Chinese guy whose majoring in Deutsch. Time went really fast, I enjoyed talking with him because he acted like half "hanyu tutor" and half "new Chinese friend". Anyway, after class, me, my sis, and our two other classmates decided to 一起去晚饭在西门的附近.
我们吃 korean bbq, 聊天到9.30pm! We just sat there chit chat with eachother and I supposed we enjoyed eachother's company. Although by age we're a bit far apart, but at least it seems like we're able to connect with eachother.
Right now I'm quite tired...it's 10.36pm and I'm listening to 'Dawn' by Dario Marianelli from Pride and Prejudice Soundtrack...it is so smooth, calm, and pleasing to the ear.
Oh.. by the way, grammar teacher told us to make a small composition about our life in Beijing.
I'll write it down here...;)
生活在北京
虽然我对汉语和北京没有兴趣,但是有很多人告诉我,"英语现在不是世界的第一与.现在各地涌汉语所以学汉语非常重要!"
所以3月前我决定来北京学习汉语,上月我从印尼来到了北京,我听不懂汉语,说得也不流利.有印尼朋友告诉我,很多中国人不会说英语.我觉得这是很糟糕!我想一想我应该怎么办.我觉得我必须认真学习汉语.所以除了复习和写作业,我也常常去饭馆用汉语点菜.去北京很有意思的地方逛逛, 拍照片,跟别人 练习练习我的口语.我觉得这样学汉语很轻松.最近我对汉语和北京发生了兴趣.
Monday, October 11, 2010
I Miss My Architecture Buddies...
I don't know why..maybe it's because of the songs I've been listening to..
They all reminisce back to my Perth momentos..
I miss my architecture buddies...
I miss IA Sisterhood very much...
Cindy, Clarissa, and Kim...
They're the best girlfriends I could ever ask God for...
With or without make up
Fat or not fat
Good or bad mood
They all know who I really am deep inside...
I feel really secure with them...
They accept me the way I am...
I miss them terribly...
I miss my architecture buddies...all of them ..from Andrew to Moses..
I miss telling them my lame jokes...
I miss procrastinating with them...
I miss doing stupid kiddish stuffs with all of them...
I miss our study sessions...
I miss talking about philosophies, psychology, architecture, lecturers, exciting events, and food..ofcourse.
I miss going to the beach and marked our feet on the sand and wrote "3.58pm we were here"
I miss crashing into Kim's house together...playing RockBand...studying for exams...eating her snacks...
I miss spending hours and hours till dawn in Kim's house...
I miss Kimmy's guinea pig...
I miss crashing into Clar's crib...talking heart to heart...eating her candies...borrowing her straightener...and listening to her RnB collection...
I miss driving to and from Cindy's unit... I miss the stupid traffic we had to deal with..I miss the random topics we talked about along the way...
I miss our arguments...
I miss our chats..
I miss our ritual tea-drinking session...
I miss how we all feel comfortable with each other with no need of making conversation...
I miss them crashing into my house when I decided not to come to the 8am lecture...
I miss them hitting my head with pillows so I wouldn't sleep at 4am...
I miss them teaching me about cosmo stuffs...
I miss their stories and opinions...
I miss them being so caring to me when I was in one of my lowest moments...
I miss them giving me rational and wise advice when I was down...
I miss their voices...
I miss them all..very...very much...
Loads of Love to Miss Blair, Miss Bonjour, Miss Pinkie and my super clever architecture friends,
xoxo,
Miss Jazzy
:)
Sunday, October 10, 2010
the re-appearance|church|me
Dear Blog,
Me bete today.. NOt just that it's Sunday and I had classes.. but moreover, he suddenly re-appears (-___-)..
He and I both knew we had sparks.
He and I both knew Beijing could mean "to be continued" or "the end".
Beijing here I came.
Two weeks of emailing and no more words followed.
No news no effort no nothing from both of us.
I was passive and so was he.
So, I decided to click "the end" button.
Thought there's no use in waiting for uncertainty.
I forgot that I had opened my heart slightly for him.
I forgot that he might be somewhere waiting for me.
I forgot that we once had sparks.
A month has passed with no news, what do you want me to expect?
I have been happy. I've smiled. I've laughed. Without him.
All of a sudden he reappears.
Messages in blackberry were full of his texts.
So how did I react?
Happy? No. Excited? No.
The momentum and the sparks have gone with the wind.
0% feeling.
0% likeness.
0% everything.
He texted me saying about how I should go to church et cetera.
He just perfectly hit a sensitive topic.
That is definitely a minus.
I'd say he still thinks I like him just like I did back then. Sorry Mr Religious, you suddenly re-appear with the wrong topic.. Not your fault, that's just the way you are..being very religious..but I'm nothing like you. I'm sure a lot of religious girls do wish to have a partner-for-life like you :)..but I guess I'm not one of them.
o%.
Me bete today.. NOt just that it's Sunday and I had classes.. but moreover, he suddenly re-appears (-___-)..
He and I both knew we had sparks.
He and I both knew Beijing could mean "to be continued" or "the end".
Beijing here I came.
Two weeks of emailing and no more words followed.
No news no effort no nothing from both of us.
I was passive and so was he.
So, I decided to click "the end" button.
Thought there's no use in waiting for uncertainty.
I forgot that I had opened my heart slightly for him.
I forgot that he might be somewhere waiting for me.
I forgot that we once had sparks.
A month has passed with no news, what do you want me to expect?
I have been happy. I've smiled. I've laughed. Without him.
All of a sudden he reappears.
Messages in blackberry were full of his texts.
So how did I react?
Happy? No. Excited? No.
The momentum and the sparks have gone with the wind.
0% feeling.
0% likeness.
0% everything.
He texted me saying about how I should go to church et cetera.
He just perfectly hit a sensitive topic.
That is definitely a minus.
I'd say he still thinks I like him just like I did back then. Sorry Mr Religious, you suddenly re-appear with the wrong topic.. Not your fault, that's just the way you are..being very religious..but I'm nothing like you. I'm sure a lot of religious girls do wish to have a partner-for-life like you :)..but I guess I'm not one of them.
o%.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Right here in Beijing
I Dear Blog,
it's been a while hey.. It's October now .. I've vacuumed blogging since April..wow.. a lot surely has changed...
Right now I'm in Beijing studying Mandarin at UIBE.. It's been about a month..I quite like it here.
Departure in airport wasn't great..
I felt like crying when I was about to leave for Beijing.. It wasn't my wish to come here..It wasn't my dream..But I had this feeling that I had to let go whatever I was dealing with in Indo and moved away to Beijing.. I just knew that this is the best path.. So I went along with it..and here I am in my dorm blogging.
Here in Beijing my goal is to purify my mind and soul, to really open up myself from the constraints I've been living with, to really try new exciting things, and to learn some Mandarin..I just know that by the end of this semester, I'm going to be a brand new strong person, someone tougher and wiser. I know I'm not going downhill, I just know that by being here in Beijing, it's like a self-disciplinary camp, I'm not going downhill but up up and up and I'm on my way to where I'm supposed to be.
A wise quote I read from the net by H.Ruff "It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark." was really inspirational.. He was well-prepared for the big flood coming. People laughed at him for there was no rain at the time and the earth was dry. Why would he built an ark? It didn't make sense before.. Until the rain came and flooded every living things..Only Noah and his ark survived. Very inspirational. I want to be like Mr. Noah =).
Anyway...
So many stories to tell from here in Beijing...Anyhow..I just got back from Inner Mongolia last Tuesday, it was a 5 day trip and was loads of fun :) ...such an experience I shall always cherish..an experience I shall never forget! Met new friends, for that 5 days I forgot all my worries..I had a blast! And it was also my first time drinking 8 cups of beer.. including bai jiu. Not drunk, just a little tipsy ;P.. A friend of mine told me to try drink 1 big bottle of beer.. I will! just wait and see ;P.
I still can't believe I'm in Beijing..seriously..
Oh..one more note to this post: ..I've lately fallen in love with Kings of Convenience and Adhitya Sofian ! Me likey their songs..they sound so smooth, so relax, and I just loveee them ~oo~ They've been accompanying my daily chores in my dorm. xoxo.
So many to tell from Beijing..I don't know where to start..
Surprise2, Beijing is safer than Jakarta.. and a lot more organized! It's nothing like what people say on the net / scary bb fwd messages about China black market, overseas students, etc. Well I suppose such thing exist but not in the areas where I hang out. Furthermore, the food here is so cheap...and surprisingly quite tasty! It's just too much oil..but other than that..they're so cheappp!! I wonder whether chicken meat is really...chicken meat :P..anyway, not a big deal when my tummy roars for food xP
Good night Blog
it's been a while hey.. It's October now .. I've vacuumed blogging since April..wow.. a lot surely has changed...
Right now I'm in Beijing studying Mandarin at UIBE.. It's been about a month..I quite like it here.
Departure in airport wasn't great..
I felt like crying when I was about to leave for Beijing.. It wasn't my wish to come here..It wasn't my dream..But I had this feeling that I had to let go whatever I was dealing with in Indo and moved away to Beijing.. I just knew that this is the best path.. So I went along with it..and here I am in my dorm blogging.
Here in Beijing my goal is to purify my mind and soul, to really open up myself from the constraints I've been living with, to really try new exciting things, and to learn some Mandarin..I just know that by the end of this semester, I'm going to be a brand new strong person, someone tougher and wiser. I know I'm not going downhill, I just know that by being here in Beijing, it's like a self-disciplinary camp, I'm not going downhill but up up and up and I'm on my way to where I'm supposed to be.
A wise quote I read from the net by H.Ruff "It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark." was really inspirational.. He was well-prepared for the big flood coming. People laughed at him for there was no rain at the time and the earth was dry. Why would he built an ark? It didn't make sense before.. Until the rain came and flooded every living things..Only Noah and his ark survived. Very inspirational. I want to be like Mr. Noah =).
Anyway...
So many stories to tell from here in Beijing...Anyhow..I just got back from Inner Mongolia last Tuesday, it was a 5 day trip and was loads of fun :) ...such an experience I shall always cherish..an experience I shall never forget! Met new friends, for that 5 days I forgot all my worries..I had a blast! And it was also my first time drinking 8 cups of beer.. including bai jiu. Not drunk, just a little tipsy ;P.. A friend of mine told me to try drink 1 big bottle of beer.. I will! just wait and see ;P.
I still can't believe I'm in Beijing..seriously..
Oh..one more note to this post: ..I've lately fallen in love with Kings of Convenience and Adhitya Sofian ! Me likey their songs..they sound so smooth, so relax, and I just loveee them ~oo~ They've been accompanying my daily chores in my dorm. xoxo.
So many to tell from Beijing..I don't know where to start..
Surprise2, Beijing is safer than Jakarta.. and a lot more organized! It's nothing like what people say on the net / scary bb fwd messages about China black market, overseas students, etc. Well I suppose such thing exist but not in the areas where I hang out. Furthermore, the food here is so cheap...and surprisingly quite tasty! It's just too much oil..but other than that..they're so cheappp!! I wonder whether chicken meat is really...chicken meat :P..anyway, not a big deal when my tummy roars for food xP
Good night Blog
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Faint Smile
I'm going to go to a mall this evening..to inspect something............record something.........
God..Please..I pray for Your protection and wisdom......
I'm gonna play it sophisticatedly..... *sigh*
Friday, April 16, 2010
Dreaming Better Days...
It's been a while I haven't been typing anything for updates about me here...
So far.. domestic issue is getting.. quite complicated..but I'm grateful that it's still under control.
So many domestic politics to deal with.. Me NO LIKEY!
I'm still taking courses like jazz, vocals, Mandarin.. and I'm enjoying them all very very much.
I'm not so much interested in love life at the moment.. There's so much to contain in this one tiny self. Love will come when it's least expected to come... I just don't like it when my pa and ma are forcing me to find one asap..it's not like buying a new piece of land where u can just sell it again if u don't want it anymore.. Haiz..
God ? I admit I haven't prayed everyday... But I still believe THERE IS God. I just..you know when problems hit you, you don't really feel like sharing them to God every morning and night.. You feel like God knows 'em all already.. so what's the prayer all about? But again let me ask you, what is a prayer?? If I want to talk to my God, I'd just talk the way I'm comfortable with. Not with fancy words / sentence structure, but all out from the heart. So perhaps.. I've been praying everyday..but not like what 'normal' people see prayer as. :)
Tomorrow I'm going to my mum's hometown and meet some relatives there.. I pray it's gonna be a good , good break from all the mess I've been facing.
But I have to admit, these two weekends (Sat nights) had been awesome! Went out with friends from Perth and had really good times. Thank God for friends here.
:)
God...I pray that tomorrow is going to be a much better day than today.. Amen.
So far.. domestic issue is getting.. quite complicated..but I'm grateful that it's still under control.
So many domestic politics to deal with.. Me NO LIKEY!
I'm still taking courses like jazz, vocals, Mandarin.. and I'm enjoying them all very very much.
I'm not so much interested in love life at the moment.. There's so much to contain in this one tiny self. Love will come when it's least expected to come... I just don't like it when my pa and ma are forcing me to find one asap..it's not like buying a new piece of land where u can just sell it again if u don't want it anymore.. Haiz..
God ? I admit I haven't prayed everyday... But I still believe THERE IS God. I just..you know when problems hit you, you don't really feel like sharing them to God every morning and night.. You feel like God knows 'em all already.. so what's the prayer all about? But again let me ask you, what is a prayer?? If I want to talk to my God, I'd just talk the way I'm comfortable with. Not with fancy words / sentence structure, but all out from the heart. So perhaps.. I've been praying everyday..but not like what 'normal' people see prayer as. :)
Tomorrow I'm going to my mum's hometown and meet some relatives there.. I pray it's gonna be a good , good break from all the mess I've been facing.
But I have to admit, these two weekends (Sat nights) had been awesome! Went out with friends from Perth and had really good times. Thank God for friends here.
:)
God...I pray that tomorrow is going to be a much better day than today.. Amen.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Jajan Jazz after Java Jazz
7th March:
Oh man..Java Jazz on its last Sunday was awesome!!!! Manhattan Transfer was the first show we watched and had to pay extra Rp to get inside.. it was alright was quite worth it... Vice President was there as well watching it with us. So much bargaining we had to do just to get cheap tickets to get inside :p
Bubi Chen was ofcourse amazing as well!! At the age of 74..and still going strong?! That grandpa rocks!! He played awesome jazz tunes and his band was so fantastic! I thought they're from Hongkong or Taiwan or somewhere East Asia. Only later that nite I found out he's from SURABAYA, Indonesia! Wow!!
Bob James Trio was definitely the highlight of the night.. We had to squeeezzeee just to queue outside the hall.. was hot and humid..but if it's for Bob James Trio.. we'd do anything! haha *no..that's a bit extreme* :P
13th March:
By around 8.15pm we arrived at Mall Serpong in Gading Summarecon.. it's really a nice mall.. I love the courtyard .. it made me felt like I was in Singapore...or Bandung.. or anything but Jakarta...awesomeness! Then mr D *mr dentist, 29 years of age - came to see us.. People had been saying he's interested in me but.. I couldn't feel the chemistry..it's just ain't there..sad..sorry Mr.D . So I heard he closed his clinic early to meet us that night, and I noticed he'd been smiling and all that to me..but hmm.. was I being mean or what? It's just a Big NO. Mum had been saying he's a really nice guy, family guy, financially stable blablabla..but who can deny what the heart is really feeling? I can't. Sorry Mum.
By 9.30pm we arrived at the Jajan Jazz Festival.. My piano tutor performed there.. The timetable ran VERY late, so he performed at around 11pm..but that's alright..coz it was worth the wait. His band was super awesome.. Really Really Really GOOD~ !! That was like a fresh air to my ear and heart after all the bitchiness I went through last week.
Then we took photos and congratulated him and the band. Seriously, they're the most good-looking jazz musos in that festival (and the most good-looking jazz musos in any festival I've ever been to). How often do you find good looking young talented musos all in one band other than poppish-rockish bands? We're talking about jazz here ;).
And the guitarist been noticing us two (my sis and i)..and made some introduction.. He's not bad looking at all.. From a far when the spotlight was on him, he looked like some kind of Korean actor..but when the spotlight was off..he's not as good looking haha..but still looked pretty cool with all that British-preppy outfit ..Oh and I think he's interested in my sis..HAHA.. he asked her , her age. .when he heard she's only 21, he was kind of surprised, he looked like 25++..Anyway..I think my sis kinda like him as well.. he's her type..;P
Public Holiday and a Birthday
I had a pleasant public holiday yesterday. I was waiting for my piano tutor but he didn't come and didn't even call me or text me why he's not coming.. Doh! But it wasn't a big deal .. coz I was looking forward meeting some old friends from Perth :)))
By around 2pm, the four of us arrived at Social House, Grand Indonesia. We ordered lunch, talked, toilet, talked, coffees and desserts, laughed, talked.. and time flew! It was 5.30pm already! We were going to watch a movie, but we opted for karaoke instead. So a friend of mine wanted to go to an ATM, we went to the food court area and saw RED MANGO. *i'm a yogurt frenzy these days*. My girlfriend and I ordered a Blackberry twist with mochi+coco crunch+strawberry as toppings. It was yummyy..I'm liking mochi now :D. It was quite funny how we girls walked really fast *according to the two guyfriends who walked behind us*..They really looked like two old men walking haha ;P.
Then by 7pm we arrived at Happy Puppy Karaoke somewhere in PIK.. It was one fun karaoke moment.. After two hours karaoke-ing, we went for leko in PIK as well. It was a nice area - PIK - . One of my guyfriends dropped me home (although we got lost for a little while around Pluit area..haha coz we entered the wrong freeway)
By around 2pm, the four of us arrived at Social House, Grand Indonesia. We ordered lunch, talked, toilet, talked, coffees and desserts, laughed, talked.. and time flew! It was 5.30pm already! We were going to watch a movie, but we opted for karaoke instead. So a friend of mine wanted to go to an ATM, we went to the food court area and saw RED MANGO. *i'm a yogurt frenzy these days*. My girlfriend and I ordered a Blackberry twist with mochi+coco crunch+strawberry as toppings. It was yummyy..I'm liking mochi now :D. It was quite funny how we girls walked really fast *according to the two guyfriends who walked behind us*..They really looked like two old men walking haha ;P.
Then by 7pm we arrived at Happy Puppy Karaoke somewhere in PIK.. It was one fun karaoke moment.. After two hours karaoke-ing, we went for leko in PIK as well. It was a nice area - PIK - . One of my guyfriends dropped me home (although we got lost for a little while around Pluit area..haha coz we entered the wrong freeway)
Arrived home about 10 30pm.. watched Take Me Out Celebrity and Mario Lawalata was thereee.. Oh seriously, he's the most good-looking indo man I've ever seen on tv/magazines/real life. A friend bbm-ing me saying he's on that show and told me not to be heart broken coz he's about to get a date from that show... Haha..oh well, I'm not a freak, okay?! Ofcourse I realize and know very well that he's a star and it's just for eyecandy ;). God..if i ever have a son, let him look like Mario hahaha ;D *to have a spouse as good looking as him would be hard to maintain..ahemm*
TODAY:
is Sis' bday..her three besties came over for a surprise bday bash. Who knew they've grown so big now and looking handsome..Aww..:) Three little brothers grown up already. So the procedure was all of them hid in the guest room downstairs and wait for my sis. As soon as my sis was downstairs, they opened the door, brought the cake lit up and sang "Happy Birthday".. that was so sweet of them :). And it was cute how they don't know how to call me.. just Agnes or with "Ci" xD
Anyway..I'm quite addicted to this one novel by Hannah Pakula about "The Last Empress" (Madame Chiang Kai-Shek)..I'm on page 126 now.. It's soooo addictive..I love biographies!
Good night blog! These two days r not stressful days.. I'm quite happy :)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
A Brand New Life
For the past God-knows-how-long months I've been meddling in this awful situation .. I've started to discover who I am...
I've learnt my limitations, I've learnt that when I'm the most upset- that is who I really am..That's who Agnes is.
The trip to Bali - Perth - Melbourne have opened my mind *somehow* in trying to finding ME in me.
I realized I have been whining a lot because I just simply can't face what's on my plate right now.. Then so many things have freshened my heart and soul that now.. I hope..really hope I can control myself before I swear and whine.
So many people's attitudes and values can be learnt from the trip. It's about how to be a better Agnes and what values to hold to:*these are the words they could've said to me/how I interpret it myself by observing them*
Shinya: Live a carefree life! Enjoy the ride! But keep your manners with you.
My Brother: Have some sense of humor..A good friend for the soul.
My Sister: Just be jollyyy!
Cindy: Stay faithful with God and do good works in His Name..Wonderful outcomes!
Claris: Loose weight to the ideal kg..Do not be tempted so easily!
Kim: First, let's see who we are in the mirror before judging others doing good / bad stuffs.
Kelvin: Forever Young ..Age is just numbers.
Larry: Just pray and endure..Only God can change people's hearts
Molen: You don't need 2 years of courtship before you get married.. 2 months sound good when you've been friends with the guy all these years.
I've learnt loads from books and parents of course, and just now.. The wife of my senior pastor (from my mum's church in Jakarta) whom I sought counsel to, have given me comforting words of wisdom..which I would like to share to those who are reading this:
About My Current Challenging Situation:
Do not plunge myself too deep to "the situation".. And if I am close to God and stay faithful, there's no such thing as descendant's curse following me around because the curse has been broken by His blood and mercy. So, keep holding on to God's righteous hand!
About The Situation (the awful case I'm experiencing right now) Affecting Personal Love Story (Who Could Back-Off and Leaving me Astray):
God is the God who provides. He has the right guy in store for me . All I have to do is to just be myself and believe that God is preparing and equipping him right now (And God is preparing me as well..for him). It's my love story anyway - not anyone else - not even my parents.
Thank you God for the insights.. :)
I know I will have to face reality 2morrow .. but with these insights in hand, I shall hold 'em tight.. Come on Agnes, you've graduated, this is your new life!!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
In Australia
What can I say about this barren land?
Although it's been nine and a half years living in this kangaroo continent, I don't really miss it ... Am I too cold-hearted? Hmm maybe I am..
I love my friends in Perth...But there's something about me that just doesn't click with the city.
Hmmm....Aniwae, I'm back here in Perth...Love the sky..Perth's sky is the best I've ever seen in my entire life..Amazing strokes of clouds, sun illuminates brightly ...The smell of grass at dawn..
Perth's nature is raw .. but soothing...
I graduated yesterday @ Curtin Bentley..The ceremony was awesome (although the mid part was quite bohring..) But I love the ending..starting from the girl who sang Time To Say Goodbye to the fireworks and concluded with Black Eyed Peas song "I gotta Feeling"..uu yeah..That's the highlight of the ceremony!
Currently my mind is still being occupied with so many thoughts and plans...
I'm recovering from flu..I guess Perth's clean air + medicine have helped me through the sickness...which is good!
Australia ... Perth ... thank you for the past nine and a half years... I've grown up here.. More or less you've shaped who I am today... Your education style, Your people, Your lifestyle, and Your culture have moulded me in every possible way - making me a better person..Much better than what I could've been if I stayed elsewhere. Mostly I've learnt how to appreciate and love different cultures. You've opened up my mind and filled it with goodness and fairness of mankind.
Thank you.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
The tattooed guy
What is wrong with me?
I have totally disbanded all the values/principles I have upon what a guy should be like!!!
I met this dude who's actually plain looking, but actually very charming.
Maybe because of his amazing politeness, his posture, and his tattoo..
And ofcourse his lifestyle is awesome!Surfing + martial arts?? You're awesome, dude!
For years before, I thought a good man should be: no tattoo, no drinkie, no smokiie, perfectionist, family guy, blahblablah.. But hey.. all that don't guarantee him as a good man deep down inside, right?
So, let's cross out the tatoo part.. Now, I don't mind if my later-on-partner has tattoes (as long as they're not scary ones).
Tattoed guy doesn't mean he ain't a nice person. Now I feel like I want to have a tattoo as well..hihih..nah.my parents gonna kill me..eeeeekkk..maybe temporary tattoo will do ;P
TIME TO SLEEP and STOP IMAGINING SO UN-IMPORTANT STUFFS!
I have totally disbanded all the values/principles I have upon what a guy should be like!!!
I met this dude who's actually plain looking, but actually very charming.
Maybe because of his amazing politeness, his posture, and his tattoo..
And ofcourse his lifestyle is awesome!Surfing + martial arts?? You're awesome, dude!
For years before, I thought a good man should be: no tattoo, no drinkie, no smokiie, perfectionist, family guy, blahblablah.. But hey.. all that don't guarantee him as a good man deep down inside, right?
So, let's cross out the tatoo part.. Now, I don't mind if my later-on-partner has tattoes (as long as they're not scary ones).
Tattoed guy doesn't mean he ain't a nice person. Now I feel like I want to have a tattoo as well..hihih..nah.my parents gonna kill me..eeeeekkk..maybe temporary tattoo will do ;P
TIME TO SLEEP and STOP IMAGINING SO UN-IMPORTANT STUFFS!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Ahhh..Feels Good - NOT
To: ***** *********
Do you know that it feels so good that you were not here?
Do you know that it feels so peaceful without you here?
Do you know that I don't get no more migraine from constant bbm mentioning and analysing your every conduct?
Do you know that I wish you're never here ?
Do you know that although it's so unlikely for you to get out of our life, I always pray everyday for you to realize what you have been contributing to our mess..
Think of your family, appreciate them..love them ... and find your own peace and GET OUT OF HERE.
I know I have been giving you enormous pressure for the past two days, and there's not even a word I ever regret saying in front of you (sarcasm is my best weapon, dear). I'm very much aware that you are very uncomfortable with me. I like it.
Your venom does not work with me, awww, too bad. Tommorow there will be no you, that's why no matter how late I have to stay out of the house today, I will do it...As long as you feel pressured as hell. I don't care whether *** upset with me or whatever lah, I stand for WHAT I BELIEVE!
When I come back from my trip, I will be more prudent and will be a bit impetuous. I will follow my guts, and I shan't hesitate to tell you off in front of people. I'm serious. You just wait.
BREATHEEEE AGNES...breatheee..I'm all well-prepared. >:)
May the force be with me.
Do you know that it feels so good that you were not here?
Do you know that it feels so peaceful without you here?
Do you know that I don't get no more migraine from constant bbm mentioning and analysing your every conduct?
Do you know that I wish you're never here ?
Do you know that although it's so unlikely for you to get out of our life, I always pray everyday for you to realize what you have been contributing to our mess..
Think of your family, appreciate them..love them ... and find your own peace and GET OUT OF HERE.
I know I have been giving you enormous pressure for the past two days, and there's not even a word I ever regret saying in front of you (sarcasm is my best weapon, dear). I'm very much aware that you are very uncomfortable with me. I like it.
Your venom does not work with me, awww, too bad. Tommorow there will be no you, that's why no matter how late I have to stay out of the house today, I will do it...As long as you feel pressured as hell. I don't care whether *** upset with me or whatever lah, I stand for WHAT I BELIEVE!
When I come back from my trip, I will be more prudent and will be a bit impetuous. I will follow my guts, and I shan't hesitate to tell you off in front of people. I'm serious. You just wait.
BREATHEEEE AGNES...breatheee..I'm all well-prepared. >:)
May the force be with me.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Hmmmmm.... Okay...
Okay....
Amazing...
No headache, no migraine... Well..ofcourse it's because they're not here..
I wish life could be just like this... No constant migraine everyday...
Goodness gracious me... I never thought I have to go through all these...
Instead of going to some psychic.. I actually found listening to sermons could be a much better option.. I considered them so bohring last time..And now, I'm just craving for them... I desperately want to be encouraged, want to be pushed, and I just want some answers...
Today is not as bad as yesterday.. it's an okay day :) .. good enough!
Amazing...
No headache, no migraine... Well..ofcourse it's because they're not here..
I wish life could be just like this... No constant migraine everyday...
Goodness gracious me... I never thought I have to go through all these...
Instead of going to some psychic.. I actually found listening to sermons could be a much better option.. I considered them so bohring last time..And now, I'm just craving for them... I desperately want to be encouraged, want to be pushed, and I just want some answers...
Today is not as bad as yesterday.. it's an okay day :) .. good enough!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Why....
Only last night denger kotbah ttg stress etc, how we should run to God and stay focus...
But why is it soo hard in practice???
I'm so angry and frustrated ... Living here is like living in hell... Everyday is torture... I've realized my hair got the effect..it's thinning.. I'm still freaking 23 and I want to live my life to the fullest.. Not living like this.....I don't want this sh*t..
***, you just slapped yourself.. mencoreng diri sendiri lewat BB...CONGRATULATIONS!!
*** prayed to God so He punishes u sometime because of what you've done... I have no objection on the request... I honestly think you deserve it.. no the ***** deserves some punishment as well..
OH MY GOODDD..whyyy whyyyyyyyyy is it soooo harddddd??
But why is it soo hard in practice???
I'm so angry and frustrated ... Living here is like living in hell... Everyday is torture... I've realized my hair got the effect..it's thinning.. I'm still freaking 23 and I want to live my life to the fullest.. Not living like this.....I don't want this sh*t..
***, you just slapped yourself.. mencoreng diri sendiri lewat BB...CONGRATULATIONS!!
*** prayed to God so He punishes u sometime because of what you've done... I have no objection on the request... I honestly think you deserve it.. no the ***** deserves some punishment as well..
OH MY GOODDD..whyyy whyyyyyyyyy is it soooo harddddd??
Friday, January 22, 2010
You You You
It's enough...............
Seriously..................
Stop it......................
Ok..Gue pernah kesel sama org..tapi ga pernah sampe senaik darah kayak hari ini... I came to a state dimana gue pengen banget nangis..tapi ga bisa..ini di kantor...Yahhh because I couldnt cry..jadi swearing deh...I did anything to let out my quickie anger.
Gue kasar? Maybe... My fault? Yes, it's nobody else's fault, I'm not trying to point finger to anyone... Tapi at this point, gue bener2 bisa ngerti why people turn to alcohol, drugs, paranormal and friends... Gue ngerti banget, but I won't go that far.
Penyakit dalem? Maybee... Maybe kalo ga dikeluarin bisa jadi penyakit dalem... But it's okay...It's okay...
Right now? I really want to have a reallyyyy looonnnggg sleep and a really nice dream... I reallyyy want to sleep..just sleep.
Seriously..................
Stop it......................
Ok..Gue pernah kesel sama org..tapi ga pernah sampe senaik darah kayak hari ini... I came to a state dimana gue pengen banget nangis..tapi ga bisa..ini di kantor...Yahhh because I couldnt cry..jadi swearing deh...I did anything to let out my quickie anger.
Gue kasar? Maybe... My fault? Yes, it's nobody else's fault, I'm not trying to point finger to anyone... Tapi at this point, gue bener2 bisa ngerti why people turn to alcohol, drugs, paranormal and friends... Gue ngerti banget, but I won't go that far.
Penyakit dalem? Maybee... Maybe kalo ga dikeluarin bisa jadi penyakit dalem... But it's okay...It's okay...
Right now? I really want to have a reallyyyy looonnnggg sleep and a really nice dream... I reallyyy want to sleep..just sleep.
Friday, January 15, 2010
ENOUGH!!!!!!
ENOUGHH!!! i've had enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IS there any other planet that's habitable? I would like to move there. >: (
God.. this is stressful. Can someone please take over this case ? I'm so stressed >:~(
IS there any other planet that's habitable? I would like to move there. >: (
God.. this is stressful. Can someone please take over this case ? I'm so stressed >:~(
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Mark a new beginning
Okay Agnes.. stop pitying yourself, stop whining, stop complaining, stop stop stop stop!
Friends, one thing I realized last night... if we make time for God, everything is under control :)
I know I can't solve "this" problem... I know I'm helpless... I know this is beyond my control...I'm very much aware of my position in this problem... I can either make it worse it make it better.
Agnes, you should promise yourself to make time for God.. to read His loving scriptures aloud and assure yourself that it's perfectly safe to surrender to God. It's a long and winding journey, but you should never give up. Do whatever you have to do as best as you can and God controls the rest. His ways are unfathomable so don't try to rationalize everything. Let Him guide you with his righteous right hand. You're not lost.
Am I sounding like a very religious person? Well, I have been excercising my logic more often than spending quality time with my Creator. Now I have come to a situation where I can only depend on Him a total 100%.
I don't want to be a hypocrite ... So there will be stressful moments which I'm going to post in this blog ... but it doesn't mean I don't trust God .. I am still a humanbeing... People have ways to convey their anger.. and I'm glad I don't have to go as far to Mr Drugs and Friends .. I'm glad this blog is my refuge where I can pour my thoughts and reflect.
Thank God for blogs! and bloggers! :)
Friends, one thing I realized last night... if we make time for God, everything is under control :)
I know I can't solve "this" problem... I know I'm helpless... I know this is beyond my control...I'm very much aware of my position in this problem... I can either make it worse it make it better.
Agnes, you should promise yourself to make time for God.. to read His loving scriptures aloud and assure yourself that it's perfectly safe to surrender to God. It's a long and winding journey, but you should never give up. Do whatever you have to do as best as you can and God controls the rest. His ways are unfathomable so don't try to rationalize everything. Let Him guide you with his righteous right hand. You're not lost.
Am I sounding like a very religious person? Well, I have been excercising my logic more often than spending quality time with my Creator. Now I have come to a situation where I can only depend on Him a total 100%.
I don't want to be a hypocrite ... So there will be stressful moments which I'm going to post in this blog ... but it doesn't mean I don't trust God .. I am still a humanbeing... People have ways to convey their anger.. and I'm glad I don't have to go as far to Mr Drugs and Friends .. I'm glad this blog is my refuge where I can pour my thoughts and reflect.
Thank God for blogs! and bloggers! :)
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
New Year 2010
The start of the year was full of tears, anger, and hatred...
My birthday this year was probably the mellowest bday ever...
I don't know what I'd become if I let "this" govern me...
I'm trying to think positively...but easier said than done...
No suggestion is good enough because the problem does not lie within me... it's THEM!
Why they dragged me into the mud??
Howeverr... happiness is a decision. So, no matter how hard it is, I have to stay happy ......... rawwwwwwrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......
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