A Worshiper

23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. ²⁴God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth."(John 4: 23-24)

Lately I've been filling in random quizzes in Facebook and there's one that I did have a go at and it was about God's gifts in you (eg. are you a worshiper / teacher etc) and mine was : a worshiper.

Then about 2 days ago I randomly opened my cute-tiny Bible just to read something.. this technique does not necessarily work all the time, but I was tired at that time and it was 4 am in the morning. So I said to God "God, look, it's not playing hide and seek with you, but I'm just very sleepy and I know any chapter I read is You talking to me this dawn."

So John 4, God was talking to a Samaritan woman, I pictured straightaway how it might had been like back then and those two verses felt like they were emboldened.

And you know what's weirder? Every time I started to read the Bible again, I always got nightmares...One of them was I somehow tried to run away from this evil-looking Chinese dude , and I didn't escape successfully then I woke up. So I didn't read the Bible the next day and I dream normally (no nightmares, just some random dream)...And I tested it again and read the Bible again, and goshh another nightmare!! I don't know about tonight, but maybe it's just ms.evil doesn't like me growing in God...

Well, I guess I have to know exactly where I'm walking on and where my destination is.

God, I'm not worth it, I have so many flaws that I don't think I can be Your worshiper in spirit and in truth...But I know You look deeper down into the purest form of heart and with what I have, with all I am, I shall worship You ... and I hope I can make You smile... that's my prayer.