I Am Not Forgotten

Yesterday evening I just received an email from this interior firm which I applied over a year ago... And long story cut short, I was shocked.. and still am shocked, surprised, or however you say it, I feel like butterflies in my tummy.. I keep saying to myself "Someone like me? God, You must be kiddin' me. This is a dream!" Then my sister pinched me and it hurt real bad.. and she said to me "To prove to you that it isn't a dream!"

There's a line in the email which synchronize with a dream I had about last year..It's another premunition for me..


Lord Jesus Christ, You have not forgotten me .. Thank You , Lord :)

Here in Beijing, I've been listening to You Are Not Forgotten by Israel and New Breed, and I love the lyrics, so uplifting, so encouraging, and it definitely has strengthened me. :))

You Are Not Forgotten Key of G
By Israel & The New Breed (feat. Jonny Lang)

People walking by very seldom they say hi
They don’t know how wonderful you are
If they only knew all the things you’ve been through
If only they can see your heart

** I hear you crying for help
Please don’t blame yourself
You are not forgotten, you are not forgotten

When it’s time to go to sleep
And you try your best to keep yourself from falling apart
There’s no need to fear because I’m already here
And I’m the one who see’s your heart **

Bridge
You are not just a face in the crowd
You are not a forgotten child
Let me whisper in the light
I love you, oh I love you

You can hold your head up high cause I’ll make everything alright
I’m committed to you smiling again yeah
And eventually you see people similarities
Everyone just needs a friend
And when they’re crying for help
You’ll be able to tell …them
Please tell them for Me
You are not forgotten, You are not forgotten (things are gonna get much better)
You are not forgotten, You are not forgotten (you're gonna smile again)

You're my friend
Just in Me
I’m the One I'm the One who sees your heart
you are not forgotten

You're my precious to me
I'm the One..

Not forgotten no no

Just remember you are not forgotten

You are not forgotten

Blakc is Back

I coloured my hair black.. BLAKC is BACK!!! wahoooooO~

The hairstylist was cute, the colour's awesome, the smell's nice, the cut is lovely..

I'm loving the new me ;D

I'm begging time to slow down..... :(

Why am I so sad today..
I had a friend came and visit me this weekend and we had heaps of fun.. While we were eating dimsum at around 4am in the morning, we could see the changing rays of sky across the window pane. As the sky turned bright this dawn, my heart suddenly saddened by the fact that he’s leaving soon in less than 4 hours time.. the weekend is almost over, and this semester is coming to an end.. Time has been running too fast and I’m not ready for it…
Our Friday Schedule: The Summer Palace – Beijing University – Westin – Houhai – Olympic Park – 1949 Duck d’Chine – KTV – Sanlitun and North Village.
Our Saturday Schedule : JinMaDaSha – BLCU Muslim Restaurant – Hard Rock Café – Westin – 798 – The Place – Lan Bar – KTV – JinDingXuan.
The schedule was tight, and my friend was pretty annoying, kept on bullying me for ‘I-don’t know-why’ reasons…but kind of brought back Perth memories… So sad .. And his brother who has been a good friend of mine here in Beijing was also leaving.. Today’s morning would be my last time hanging out with him in Beijing as I’m going back for good as well this coming July.. No July.. I don’t want you to come so fast.. 
I don’t want to pack..
I’m begging time to please slow down…  

Thursday Fun

I had a great day on Thursday. Cooked Indonesian food for a number of my besties here. There were Mie Goreng Jawa (with coriander), Chicken Curry, Tomato Cucumber Salad, and Fruit Salad for dessert. We had to prepare from around 4pm .. I cried in the afternoon while cutting the red onion..lolz..Anywayz, I made them all hot chocolate – SwissMiss French Vanilla – then we watched together –Coming Soon - . My friend was in it :D So, we watched it together and everyone went home at around 1am. The next morning, I was about to meet my old friend from Perth 

My Key.

My Key.

I know I’m not so “young” anymore as some people said to me.. “go get yourself a partner” or “ you should open up yourself” or “You shouldn’t be too picky, you’re not that perfect either”.."time's running up, Agnes!"

Sorry to disappoint all of you.. but I'm quite a rock-headed on this matter.

I do feel jealous and envious when I see friends holding hands with their partners..and I do sometimes wish I could be like them..holding hands, all getting cozy and romantic.. But I have this one big issue when dealing with guys. And for me, this is a very important, a number one, a MUST requirement.

No, I don’t look for perfection in my future-partner.
But, Yes, I do look for perfection in the chemistry between us.

I can't force myself to like some guy.. No matter how much he earns...no matter how well-mannered he is... no matter how good-looking he is.. If I can't click with him..I just.. can't.

I can't pretend to be someone else. I can't pretend to be the loveliest, friendliest, most mature girl in the planet, can I ? I don't like pretending that much..

Oh well.. dear me...


I’m such a complicated and such a difficult human being to deal with, but at least, I hope I am an honest person.

This little heart right here probably has the weirdest shape, abstract colors, and has the strangest lock. But I believe every heart is unique and has its own particular key. I guess I just haven’t found my key :p

Saturday Night Dinner on Fire

Okay,
So this week has really been a big week for me..an interesting week for sure~

So yesterday we were out to Hai Dian area to this restaurant calledThe Middle 8th Restaurant. It serves fine Yunnan cuisine. Bie di le, the cuisine was delicious! It has that sweetness to it and I like it :) .. We were late tho..

Our dearest friend who organized it wasn't really organized.. haha..so we went there and started our dinner by 9pm.. We ordered 9 dishes. By the time we nearly finished our 8th dish, smoke started to appear leaking from the pipes above us. Uh Oh!!!

So we walked downstairs as we wondered how to pay the bills?! Our fish which was meant to be our 9th / last dish had not arrived as well..But oh well, the restaurant was already filled in with smoke...

ANd not long after, the ambulance and police arrived at the scene. We were still waiting outside asking the waiter how we're gonna pay the bill.

Then at the end of the day, they said it's for free.. We didn't have to pay nothing ..Lucky? :P

I guess if we weren't late that night, we would have had paid full price.. I guess, everything happens for reason? haha..

I guess.. thank you God for giving us free Saturday night dinner?

But I hope no one got injured or anything.. and I hope that the restaurant didn't lose so much.. Coz they really have nice interior, nice ambience, and delicious food. I would go back there again if only it's not that far from where I live.. :P

Interesting night in deed..

Now I'm currently watching Despicable Me, while waiting for my fangdong to arrive.

The Singing Contest | Dancing Till Sunrise

Dear blog

There’s so much to write..I don’t really know where to start…

But the highlight of this May would be.. the singing contest …

So basicly it’s a singing contest for overseas students in UIBE. They hold it once every year. So every class gets to participate..it’s quite a big thing, especially, this year is UIBE’s 60^th year anniversary, so they’re really into it. Anyway, so I represented my class. One student, a few, or the whole bunch can join in ..but my class trusted me to represent our B212 class.

I still remembered how I didn’t know what song to pick… I still remembered how my buddies and I went to karaoke at PartyWorld just to warm up and to pick a song. I also still remembered how I wanted to sing Lao Shu Ai Da Mi, but 2 classes already picked the song, so I gotta chose another one.

I was bloody nervous to the core… I trembled as I sang for the first time in front of my classmates…I couldn’t trust myself. I thought I wouldn’t be able to memorize the lyrics for they’re all in Mandarin. God knows how bad I am in memorizing lyrics. I wasn’t sure of myself. The pressure was exceptionally big.

I prayed and I prayed. I asked my close friends to help me prayer so I wouldn’t get nervous on the stage.. I guess this is the power of Ora Et Labora. J On that big day, my hands were cold, I was so nervous. After class, our 班长, and I went to her room to get ready. Fumi, her roommate helped me with the makeup, my Korean girls – classmates –, especially Eun Hye helped me with the hair. And for the last time I practiced singing in front of them.

I’m on number 9. My classmates were terrific. They’re the best classmates ever! They supported me 100%, they even went to the front near where the judges were, and sat there cheering for me with the blue papers printed my name,加油, and 最棒on them. My homeroom teacher printed them for us. I kept on telling myself “God thank you for the confidence, God thank you for the confidence.” , and so I sang 但愿人长久。

Everyone was quiet as I began singing… I don’t know why, but when I was singing on the stage, I didn’t tremble. I felt this surge of confidence surround me, I felt this calmness within. As I sang I also remembered how the day before, my Cell Group mates prayed for me so I wouldn’t get nervous. They prayed if God allowed so, I would win..But we surrendered all according to God’s will.

There’s an intermezzo in the middle of the song where the music played for about 30min and I didn’t have to sing during that period. My 2 best boy-friends in the class, Shino and Lelepin dressed handsomely came up to the stage and gave me Lily flowers bouquet. They’re so lovely! I was so touched…They said it’s meant to be a secret, they wouldn’t let me know about this giving-flowers secret plan J .

At the end of the day..as the judge began announcing the winners, my classmates went gaga. I won two categories: best performance, and best female. :D . I went gaga, my classmates went gaga, we’re all gagagagagaggagagagagaga~ Only by God’s grace I could win this event J.

On that night, we celebrated our ‘victory’ @ this Japanese buffet restaurant.. God, I love my classmates!!!Affin, my best guy-buddy was also present..Thank you for sparing your precious time, Fin! :P.

So basicly at the end of the day, the lovely smelled Lily bouquet were not fresh anymore, they're about to die.. So as I went home that night, I quickly cut the stems and put them into water bottle..and look how beautiful all of them blossoming :) :)

Dancing Till Sunrise

And last night was also the highlight of this month.. A friend of mine, Ronald invited me to Vics..He booked seats and we had fun!!! My sister and I arrived at Vics at about 11.50ish pm then we were there dancing (and drank a bit) till 5am in the morning. My feet hurt but I felt alive inside ;) . It was such a great night to celebrate the week that had just passed. By the time we went upstairs to the main exit, the sky was bright, and we were like “OMG..look at the sky! It’s morning already!” Was a crazy welcome for Saturday.

It’s already 6pm now.. My head isn’t spinning anymore and I’m listening to True Worshippers “Tuhanku Maha Besar”. God, thank you for every opportunity you’ve given me, thank you for Your constant guidance. Although there are things I still could not fathom, but I know You’re always by my side, I know You have a great plan for me and..God, once again, thank you for Your grace J .

I’m gonna get ready for buffet tonight with my bunch of Indo buddies at Hai Dian..Oh and KungFu Panda 2 is out today!!! Hmm, Oh..darn it, I haven’t checked China Philharmonic Orchestra concert tix for this Wednesday.. I’ll do that after shower.Oh shoot..I also have to send this email to Li Ning my Fudao.. he’s also awesome!! He helped me translated my song into Mandarin :D (His friend actually did it..was so awesome!!!)

This is the best week so far in May. ：）