Faint Smile

I'm going to go to a mall this evening..to inspect something............record something.........

God..Please..I pray for Your protection and wisdom......

I'm gonna play it sophisticatedly..... *sigh*

Dreaming Better Days...

It's been a while I haven't been typing anything for updates about me here...

So far.. domestic issue is getting.. quite complicated..but I'm grateful that it's still under control.

So many domestic politics to deal with.. Me NO LIKEY!

I'm still taking courses like jazz, vocals, Mandarin.. and I'm enjoying them all very very much.

I'm not so much interested in love life at the moment.. There's so much to contain in this one tiny self. Love will come when it's least expected to come... I just don't like it when my pa and ma are forcing me to find one asap..it's not like buying a new piece of land where u can just sell it again if u don't want it anymore.. Haiz..

God ? I admit I haven't prayed everyday... But I still believe THERE IS God. I just..you know when problems hit you, you don't really feel like sharing them to God every morning and night.. You feel like God knows 'em all already.. so what's the prayer all about? But again let me ask you, what is a prayer?? If I want to talk to my God, I'd just talk the way I'm comfortable with. Not with fancy words / sentence structure, but all out from the heart. So perhaps.. I've been praying everyday..but not like what 'normal' people see prayer as. :)

Tomorrow I'm going to my mum's hometown and meet some relatives there.. I pray it's gonna be a good , good break from all the mess I've been facing.

But I have to admit, these two weekends (Sat nights) had been awesome! Went out with friends from Perth and had really good times. Thank God for friends here.

:)

God...I pray that tomorrow is going to be a much better day than today.. Amen.

Jajan Jazz after Java Jazz

7th March:

Oh man..Java Jazz on its last Sunday was awesome!!!! Manhattan Transfer was the first show we watched and had to pay extra Rp to get inside.. it was alright was quite worth it... Vice President was there as well watching it with us. So much bargaining we had to do just to get cheap tickets to get inside :p

Bubi Chen was ofcourse amazing as well!! At the age of 74..and still going strong?! That grandpa rocks!! He played awesome jazz tunes and his band was so fantastic! I thought they're from Hongkong or Taiwan or somewhere East Asia. Only later that nite I found out he's from SURABAYA, Indonesia! Wow!!

Bob James Trio was definitely the highlight of the night.. We had to squeeezzeee just to queue outside the hall.. was hot and humid..but if it's for Bob James Trio.. we'd do anything! haha *no..that's a bit extreme* :P

13th March:

By around 8.15pm we arrived at Mall Serpong in Gading Summarecon.. it's really a nice mall.. I love the courtyard .. it made me felt like I was in Singapore...or Bandung.. or anything but Jakarta...awesomeness! Then mr D *mr dentist, 29 years of age - came to see us.. People had been saying he's interested in me but.. I couldn't feel the chemistry..it's just ain't there..sad..sorry Mr.D . So I heard he closed his clinic early to meet us that night, and I noticed he'd been smiling and all that to me..but hmm.. was I being mean or what? It's just a Big NO. Mum had been saying he's a really nice guy, family guy, financially stable blablabla..but who can deny what the heart is really feeling? I can't. Sorry Mum.

By 9.30pm we arrived at the Jajan Jazz Festival.. My piano tutor performed there.. The timetable ran VERY late, so he performed at around 11pm..but that's alright..coz it was worth the wait. His band was super awesome.. Really Really Really GOOD~ !! That was like a fresh air to my ear and heart after all the bitchiness I went through last week.

Then we took photos and congratulated him and the band. Seriously, they're the most good-looking jazz musos in that festival (and the most good-looking jazz musos in any festival I've ever been to). How often do you find good looking young talented musos all in one band other than poppish-rockish bands? We're talking about jazz here ;).

And the guitarist been noticing us two (my sis and i)..and made some introduction.. He's not bad looking at all.. From a far when the spotlight was on him, he looked like some kind of Korean actor..but when the spotlight was off..he's not as good looking haha..but still looked pretty cool with all that British-preppy outfit ..Oh and I think he's interested in my sis..HAHA.. he asked her , her age. .when he heard she's only 21, he was kind of surprised, he looked like 25++..Anyway..I think my sis kinda like him as well.. he's her type..;P

Public Holiday and a Birthday

I had a pleasant public holiday yesterday. I was waiting for my piano tutor but he didn't come and didn't even call me or text me why he's not coming.. Doh! But it wasn't a big deal .. coz I was looking forward meeting some old friends from Perth :)))

By around 2pm, the four of us arrived at Social House, Grand Indonesia. We ordered lunch, talked, toilet, talked, coffees and desserts, laughed, talked.. and time flew! It was 5.30pm already! We were going to watch a movie, but we opted for karaoke instead. So a friend of mine wanted to go to an ATM, we went to the food court area and saw RED MANGO. *i'm a yogurt frenzy these days*. My girlfriend and I ordered a Blackberry twist with mochi+coco crunch+strawberry as toppings. It was yummyy..I'm liking mochi now :D. It was quite funny how we girls walked really fast *according to the two guyfriends who walked behind us*..They really looked like two old men walking haha ;P.

Then by 7pm we arrived at Happy Puppy Karaoke somewhere in PIK.. It was one fun karaoke moment.. After two hours karaoke-ing, we went for leko in PIK as well. It was a nice area - PIK - . One of my guyfriends dropped me home (although we got lost for a little while around Pluit area..haha coz we entered the wrong freeway)

Arrived home about 10 30pm.. watched Take Me Out Celebrity and Mario Lawalata was thereee.. Oh seriously, he's the most good-looking indo man I've ever seen on tv/magazines/real life. A friend bbm-ing me saying he's on that show and told me not to be heart broken coz he's about to get a date from that show... Haha..oh well, I'm not a freak, okay?! Ofcourse I realize and know very well that he's a star and it's just for eyecandy ;). God..if i ever have a son, let him look like Mario hahaha ;D *to have a spouse as good looking as him would be hard to maintain..ahemm*

TODAY:
is Sis' bday..her three besties came over for a surprise bday bash. Who knew they've grown so big now and looking handsome..Aww..:) Three little brothers grown up already. So the procedure was all of them hid in the guest room downstairs and wait for my sis. As soon as my sis was downstairs, they opened the door, brought the cake lit up and sang "Happy Birthday".. that was so sweet of them :). And it was cute how they don't know how to call me.. just Agnes or with "Ci" xD

Anyway..I'm quite addicted to this one novel by Hannah Pakula about "The Last Empress" (Madame Chiang Kai-Shek)..I'm on page 126 now.. It's soooo addictive..I love biographies!

Good night blog! These two days r not stressful days.. I'm quite happy :)

A Brand New Life

For the past God-knows-how-long months I've been meddling in this awful situation .. I've started to discover who I am...

I've learnt my limitations, I've learnt that when I'm the most upset- that is who I really am..That's who Agnes is.

The trip to Bali - Perth - Melbourne have opened my mind *somehow* in trying to finding ME in me.

I realized I have been whining a lot because I just simply can't face what's on my plate right now.. Then so many things have freshened my heart and soul that now.. I hope..really hope I can control myself before I swear and whine.

So many people's attitudes and values can be learnt from the trip. It's about how to be a better Agnes and what values to hold to:*these are the words they could've said to me/how I interpret it myself by observing them*

Shinya: Live a carefree life! Enjoy the ride! But keep your manners with you.
My Brother: Have some sense of humor..A good friend for the soul.
My Sister: Just be jollyyy!
Cindy: Stay faithful with God and do good works in His Name..Wonderful outcomes!
Claris: Loose weight to the ideal kg..Do not be tempted so easily!
Kim: First, let's see who we are in the mirror before judging others doing good / bad stuffs.
Kelvin: Forever Young ..Age is just numbers.
Larry: Just pray and endure..Only God can change people's hearts
Molen: You don't need 2 years of courtship before you get married.. 2 months sound good when you've been friends with the guy all these years.

I've learnt loads from books and parents of course, and just now.. The wife of my senior pastor (from my mum's church in Jakarta) whom I sought counsel to, have given me comforting words of wisdom..which I would like to share to those who are reading this:

About My Current Challenging Situation:
Do not plunge myself too deep to "the situation".. And if I am close to God and stay faithful, there's no such thing as descendant's curse following me around because the curse has been broken by His blood and mercy. So, keep holding on to God's righteous hand!

About The Situation (the awful case I'm experiencing right now) Affecting Personal Love Story (Who Could Back-Off and Leaving me Astray):
God is the God who provides. He has the right guy in store for me . All I have to do is to just be myself and believe that God is preparing and equipping him right now (And God is preparing me as well..for him). It's my love story anyway - not anyone else - not even my parents.

Thank you God for the insights.. :)

I know I will have to face reality 2morrow .. but with these insights in hand, I shall hold 'em tight.. Come on Agnes, you've graduated, this is your new life!!

In Australia

What can I say about this barren land?

Although it's been nine and a half years living in this kangaroo continent, I don't really miss it ... Am I too cold-hearted? Hmm maybe I am..

I love my friends in Perth...But there's something about me that just doesn't click with the city.

Hmmm....Aniwae, I'm back here in Perth...Love the sky..Perth's sky is the best I've ever seen in my entire life..Amazing strokes of clouds, sun illuminates brightly ...The smell of grass at dawn..

Perth's nature is raw .. but soothing...

I graduated yesterday @ Curtin Bentley..The ceremony was awesome (although the mid part was quite bohring..) But I love the ending..starting from the girl who sang Time To Say Goodbye to the fireworks and concluded with Black Eyed Peas song "I gotta Feeling"..uu yeah..That's the highlight of the ceremony!

Currently my mind is still being occupied with so many thoughts and plans...

I'm recovering from flu..I guess Perth's clean air + medicine have helped me through the sickness...which is good!

Australia ... Perth ... thank you for the past nine and a half years... I've grown up here.. More or less you've shaped who I am today... Your education style, Your people, Your lifestyle, and Your culture have moulded me in every possible way - making me a better person..Much better than what I could've been if I stayed elsewhere. Mostly I've learnt how to appreciate and love different cultures. You've opened up my mind and filled it with goodness and fairness of mankind.

Thank you.

The tattooed guy

What is wrong with me?

I have totally disbanded all the values/principles I have upon what a guy should be like!!!

I met this dude who's actually plain looking, but actually very charming.

Maybe because of his amazing politeness, his posture, and his tattoo..

And ofcourse his lifestyle is awesome!Surfing + martial arts?? You're awesome, dude!

For years before, I thought a good man should be: no tattoo, no drinkie, no smokiie, perfectionist, family guy, blahblablah.. But hey.. all that don't guarantee him as a good man deep down inside, right?

So, let's cross out the tatoo part.. Now, I don't mind if my later-on-partner has tattoes (as long as they're not scary ones).

Tattoed guy doesn't mean he ain't a nice person. Now I feel like I want to have a tattoo as well..hihih..nah.my parents gonna kill me..eeeeekkk..maybe temporary tattoo will do ;P

TIME TO SLEEP and STOP IMAGINING SO UN-IMPORTANT STUFFS!